Head is chaotic. Successful but 7/24 unhappy. Want to write ex and a girl from past.

[youcanever]

A vent begins by,

 

I am so exhaused by 8am-6pm work 5 days a week and studies, homeworks, exams for masters degree. I feel like I am becoming a robot. I have no feelings, my legs carry me around, my mouth just talks to make things work around me. To be honest since I've got into this robot mode, I've been pretty double and even triple efficient at work. But as I said, I am not living. Not hitting gym, no socializing. Maybe couple of drinks with best pals on saturday evenings. Thats all. My head is all chaotic and even it hurts because of information overload.

 

Tomorrow I have an exam and a homework delivery and I am not ready for both of them and feelings kind of down. Just prepared myself a coffee and writing you how I feel. I feel suck. I am 24, I am in too much debt, living with mom, working, studying my master degree. I don't have a GF. I don't even have female friend because I am a f*cking shy guy.

 

The only "pimp" mode I've had was when my ex broke up with me. I was care-free and too much hurt and had bitterness towards relationships so I said "**** it" and flirted everyone and confidence skyrocketed. Made out 6 girls and has sex with 2 of them in 6 months. Best months of my life. Now I have nothing due to financial, study and work issues. No time, no money. A robot.

 

There was this girl I've made out at work. She always wanted a relationship with me but I didn't care for her that much, so I kind of pushed her away all the time. It is weird but today I feel like writing her that I am sorry if I treated her bad. Say that she is a nice girl and deserves best. I'm not writing her this that I have feels for her. Just because I am so full right now and feel like I need to come out and relax because of my past sins.

 

Even I am considering to write my ex right now. Tell her I am sorry if I ever treated her bad. Actually she was the one breaking up and treating me like chit. Even she is going europe soon to bang some college guys and party 7/24. But still, I feel so weird right now.

 

Had to vent. My head is so chaotic. Feelings like robot/zombie mixture for whole last 5-6 days.

 

Should I write that girl and my ex? Would I feel like something come out of my chest? Btw it has been 2 months she broke up. I am on 2 months NC.

 

Is it normal I feel like this to life? I am constantly unhappy and when this master degree ends, I will be almost 26 years old. To old to be socially outward and live life?

 

Damn I feel so depressed.

[ConfusedHumanBeing]

A vent begins by,

 

I am so exhaused by 8am-6pm work 5 days a week and studies, homeworks, exams for masters degree. I feel like I am becoming a robot. I have no feelings, my legs carry me around, my mouth just talks to make things work around me. To be honest since I've got into this robot mode, I've been pretty double and even triple efficient at work. But as I said, I am not living. Not hitting gym, no socializing. Maybe couple of drinks with best pals on saturday evenings. Thats all. My head is all chaotic and even it hurts because of information overload.

 

Tomorrow I have an exam and a homework delivery and I am not ready for both of them and feelings kind of down. Just prepared myself a coffee and writing you how I feel. I feel suck. I am 24, I am in too much debt, living with mom, working, studying my master degree. I don't have a GF. I don't even have female friend because I am a f*cking shy guy.

 

The only "pimp" mode I've had was when my ex broke up with me. I was care-free and too much hurt and had bitterness towards relationships so I said "**** it" and flirted everyone and confidence skyrocketed. Made out 6 girls and has sex with 2 of them in 6 months. Best months of my life. Now I have nothing due to financial, study and work issues. No time, no money. A robot.

 

There was this girl I've made out at work. She always wanted a relationship with me but I didn't care for her that much, so I kind of pushed her away all the time. It is weird but today I feel like writing her that I am sorry if I treated her bad. Say that she is a nice girl and deserves best. I'm not writing her this that I have feels for her. Just because I am so full right now and feel like I need to come out and relax because of my past sins.

 

Even I am considering to write my ex right now. Tell her I am sorry if I ever treated her bad. Actually she was the one breaking up and treating me like chit. Even she is going europe soon to bang some college guys and party 7/24. But still, I feel so weird right now.

 

Had to vent. My head is so chaotic. Feelings like robot/zombie mixture for whole last 5-6 days.

 

Should I write that girl and my ex? Would I feel like something come out of my chest? Btw it has been 2 months she broke up. I am on 2 months NC.

 

Is it normal I feel like this to life? I am constantly unhappy and when this master degree ends, I will be almost 26 years old. To old to be socially outward and live life?

 

Damn I feel so depressed.

 

1st-Pretty sure the expression is 24/7. Maybe in other places its 7/24 lol...but I think its universal.

 

2nd- DONT WRITE ANYONE! Letters are awful. Literally the worst thing you can do. Keep your writing to things dealing with your degree.

 

Just ride the wave. Breakups suck and it's a crap process, but dont let that get you down. You'll be fine.

[youcanever]

1st-Pretty sure the expression is 24/7. Maybe in other places its 7/24 lol...but I think its universal.

 

2nd- DONT WRITE ANYONE! Letters are awful. Literally the worst thing you can do. Keep your writing to things dealing with your degree.

 

Just ride the wave. Breakups suck and it's a crap process, but dont let that get you down. You'll be fine.

 

It is not a letter.

 

To that girl I was planning to write "Hey, I just felt like writing you that I am sorry if I hurt you in any way. You are a lovely, pretty girl and deserve best."

 

And my ex "Hey, I jsut felt like writing you that even though we had our ups and downs I cared for you a lot and still do. Hope you are okay."

 

Thats all.

 

Writing ex seems awful to me too but writing that girl does not. Still no?

[ConfusedHumanBeing]

It is not a letter.

 

To that girl I was planning to write "Hey, I just felt like writing you that I am sorry if I hurt you in any way. You are a lovely, pretty girl and deserve best."

 

And my ex "Hey, I jsut felt like writing you that even though we had our ups and downs I cared for you a lot and still do. Hope you are okay."

 

Thats all.

 

Writing ex seems awful to me too but writing that girl does not. Still no?

 

Those are even worse. There will be no good to come from either of those I assure you. Your only option is to keep moving forward. Sucks, but that's what it is.

[pickflicker]

Since when was 26 "too old"?

 

Jesus, you're in the prime of your life. Just push forward. The ex's are in the past.

[youcanever]

Those are even worse. There will be no good to come from either of those I assure you. Your only option is to keep moving forward. Sucks, but that's what it is.

 

Alright, no texts to ex or other girl. Moving on!

[youcanever]

Since when was 26 "too old"?

 

Jesus, you're in the prime of your life. Just push forward. The ex's are in the past.

 

I don't know. It is not? People get married at 28 and it is pretty late to start living at 26 and enjoy life IMO. My ex is 20 (I am 24) and she is doing pretty good, I guess that is why I feel so old comparing myself to her.

 

I think my problem is not my ex gf or other girl. I don't give much of a "damn" about them. My life is so busy that I don't even think of them.

 

I am just unhappy with my life. I am an mechanical engineer and studying on my automotive engineering masters degree right now. But as I feel like, I am on the wrong path of life. Yes, I am doing good with my engineering job but this is truly not what I want.

 

I want to be amazing with women and this requires going out a lot and earning a lot because you need to live by your own and get a car if you want total freedom. But as I said, I am in so much debt right now.

 

I know who I am and I am only happy when I am relaxed with my life and good with women. And right now I am becoming asocial again due to work and studies and have no success or even attempt to get a girl. I feel damn low and this is why I am so unhappy and depressed.

 

I am not on right path. Career wise yes I am but for my nature. No, I am not.

[pickflicker]

I don't know. It is not? People get married at 28 and it is pretty late to start living at 26 and enjoy life IMO. My ex is 20 (I am 24) and she is doing pretty good, I guess that is why I feel so old comparing myself to her.

 

I think my problem is not my ex gf or other girl. I don't give much of a "damn" about them. My life is so busy that I don't even think of them.

 

I am just unhappy with my life. I am an mechanical engineer and studying on my automotive engineering masters degree right now. But as I feel like, I am on the wrong path of life. Yes, I am doing good with my engineering job but this is truly not what I want.

 

I want to be amazing with women and this requires going out a lot and earning a lot because you need to live by your own and get a car if you want total freedom. But as I said, I am in so much debt right now.

 

I know who I am and I am only happy when I am relaxed with my life and good with women. And right now I am becoming asocial again due to work and studies and have no success or even attempt to get a girl. I feel damn low and this is why I am so unhappy and depressed.

 

I am not on right path. Career wise yes I am but for my nature. No, I am not.

 

No, that's ridiculous. You are 26. You are not "too young" to start anything. That mindset will become a self fulfilling prophecy if you aren't careful.

 

You do not need to "earn a lot" to get a good women, either. You're pinning your entire happiness on what women think. That's mental. Get your degree sorted, get your job sorted, then worry about dating.

[youcanever]

No, that's ridiculous. You are 26. You are not "too young" to start anything. That mindset will become a self fulfilling prophecy if you aren't careful.

 

You meant "too old"?

 

Right now I am 24. I will be 25.5 when I get my master degree.

[pickflicker]

You meant "too old"?

 

Right now I am 24. I will be 25.5 when I get my master degree.

 

Sorry, "too old". My apologies, I just woke up.

 

So? I started my second degree this year at 31. I've already spent 10+ years in one cater, and now I have my eye on another. I'm not too old.

[youcanever]

Sorry, "too old". My apologies, I just woke up.

 

So? I started my second degree this year at 31. I've already spent 10+ years in one cater, and now I have my eye on another. I'm not too old.

 

How is it like to be 31? I don't know if you are single or married but how does a person feel if he/she is not married at 30s?

 

To be honest, I am never planning to get married but I am asking this question because of I know how society make people feel if they are not married after 30s.

[pickflicker]

How is it like to be 31? I don't know if you are single or married but how does a person feel if he/she is not married at 30s?

 

To be honest, I am never planning to get married but I am asking this question because of I know how society make people feel if they are not married after 30s.

 

I love being in my 30s. Not married, but I love my life and love the fact that I know myself so well and know what I want out of life.

 

You're going to have a lot of trouble finding a woman if you don't want to get married. Must people in a long term relationship, end up thinking about it at some point.

[youcanever]

I love being in my 30s. Not married, but I love my life and love the fact that I know myself so well and know what I want out of life.

 

You're going to have a lot of trouble finding a woman if you don't want to get married. Must people in a long term relationship, end up thinking about it at some point.

 

Why would I have trouble finding women? Women at 30s start asking "do you ever want to get married?" at the beginning of dating?

[pickflicker]

Why would I have trouble finding women? Women at 30s start asking "do you ever want to get married?" at the beginning of dating?

 

You're planning to never be married. That's not something women want to hear.

[youcanever]

You're planning to never be married. That's not something women want to hear.

 

I wouldn't tell them if they don't ask. Also it is pretty repulsive if a woman I date ask for marriage or even try to get words out of me about how I feel about marriage.

[pickflicker]

I wouldn't tell them if they don't ask. Also it is pretty repulsive if a woman I date ask for marriage or even try to get words out of me about how I feel about marriage.

 

I personally don't think it's something to be discussed right away. But the longer you date a woman, the more she's going to think about it.

 

If you met someone you wanted to be with for the rest of your life, what's the big deal about getting married?

[youcanever]

I personally don't think it's something to be discussed right away. But the longer you date a woman, the more she's going to think about it.

 

If you met someone you wanted to be with for the rest of your life, what's the big deal about getting married?

 

Maybe I am just thinking like this because I am only 24 or maybe because my parents are divorced when I was 13 or maybe I don't ever see a happy marriage around me but, the big deal is for me that, there will be always plenty of fishes in the sea.

 

I know myself and I will always wonder how it would like to be single and ready to mingle. So, I wouldn't want to put my wife going through my confusing times and make her suffer. No.

[pickflicker]

Use this time to work on that. Success is not measured on what milestones you achieve by a certain age. It's measured by the ability to look back on your life with no regrets.

 

That's what you need to focus on. You're 24. You brain hasn't even finished growing yet. Take a breath, stop measuring your life by arbitrary social constructs, and instead, do what makes you happy.