losergirl Posted March 30, 2014 Posted March 30, 2014 I'm a terrible and selfish person. I'm 26 years old. I started dating my boyfriend when I was 19 - he's the same age as me. We're not engaged nor do we have kids. We've been in a relationship for 7 years - we decided a few days back to break up, although we are still living together. I can't drive and don't own a car, currently he takes me to work or anywhere else I need to go. Like the hospital. My mom is in hospital with cancer. We don't have any close friends we hang with. We became friends with my boss about 2 years ago and would go out for drinks every week or two. My boss has a very handsome, intelligent friend who joins us most of the time. I had an online affair with this man, who is about 10 years older than me, and basically chatted each other up on facebook. A spare phone in my house somehow kept messages I deleted everywhere else. My boyfriend found it and I tried explaining how it was a mistake and that it started one night after being drunk. He forgave me and gave me another chance. This was about a year ago, maybe a bit less. A bit more than a week ago we went out again with boss and friends, after a lot of drinking the same guy I had online thing with (boss friend) found me in the restroom. We kissed and was on our way to having sex but I said I don't think we should do it and he stopped and we left it. I'm not sure if this guy just see's me as maybe someone he can have sex with or if he actually likes me. My boyfriend doesn't know about this last time I cheated on him. After talking a few days back, when we decided to break up (we both said we're not happy, and that we have things to work on personally). He offered to stay and help me with driving lessons until I'm ready to drive by myself then he will move back to his mom's. I don't want to hurt him more than I already have (tell him about kissing the other guy). And I also don't want him to stay to help me get on my feet. I don't deserve it. Should I just tell him he should rather go as soon as he's ready because I'm a scumbag and don't deserve his help? And then ask people at work for lifts or something and ask brother to help with getting me to shops to get groceries etc Are we being stupid for leaving eachother? Am I being stupid for thinking the older guy might want me?
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