freebird31 Posted March 29, 2014 Posted March 29, 2014 (edited) I have been coping with this for a year now. But not once have I ever given up the idea that this happened for a reason, somehow for the best. Although it still hurts sometimes and there are certain days when I miss him, I truly believe that things happened for a reason greater than I know. I guess that's why I haven't given up yet. I haven't turned to drugs or alcohol or other ways to escape. I kept going, and fighting and trusting that this was for the best. And I won't lie, to this day I still often suffer as many of you may have read from my past posts. This past year has been one of the most difficult for me I have been alone throughout most of it, with the exception of 2 people I could trust. But majority I did and still am alone and have been facing this on my own. This past year has been a lot of suffering for me. A lots stress. I know there are others who go through far worse so I consider myself lucky it wasn't anything worst. But this year has def even more of growing and finding who I am and who I want to be. And what parts of myself I have discovered because of the breakup. It hurts a lot still, all the time . But maybe I have to go through this long journey of suffering to get to the other side. I truly believe that things I could have never imagines are coming my way. I truly believe that I'll be even happier than I used to be. I think this long journey of pain is for a reason. I can't understand it right now. But I can just trust that eventually I'll be happy again, I'll be really happy one day. I hope and pray for that because I'm tired of struggling with this. I think that the harder I fight and the more I try to be strong, the closer I am to getting to where I need to be.i don't want to waste any time because I'm tired. Edited March 29, 2014 by freebird31
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