Lost and need

[Js2493]

Hey everybody,

 

It's been about 1 month since my girlfriend of over a year and a half broke up with me. For about the first 2 weeks, I was in shock. I thought there was no way this was true and she just needed time to miss me and she would be back. Now, I've come to realize that she isn't coming back. Things with her ended on pretty rocky terms. The last real conversation we had, she had told me the reasons she broke up with me...."I caused 90% of the fights we had, I couldn't learn to be okay with things she did, I was too clingy apparently, and the thing that hurt the most was that she said I wasnt good enough for her." By no means am I saying I was perfect, but she literally made me feel as if and even told me that I gave her no other option than to end our relationship. Fast forward to now. I think about her everyday, from morning to night. Everything I see reminds me of her. Every time my phone rings I hope it's her. If she would contact me right now wanting to get back together, I would in a heartbeat. I've pretty much been an emotional wreck. We go to the same university and I see her a good bit (walking to class, gym, food places, etc). I even walk right by her occasionally and she doesn't even acknowledge me. But the thing is, every time I see her it seems like she isn't having any problem with this. She's always laughing, smiling. Even on social media, she is always talking as if she is not even phased by what happened. I understand she cut it off and this was what she wanted, but shouldn't she be feeling some of what I am feeling? This was both of our first real relationship and I whole heartedly believed it would last forever. She took all of our pictures off facebook, instagram, etc. It feels to me like she just cut me completely out of her life and is doing absolutely fine. It hurts because to me, it feels like she isn't even acknowledging the past 1.5 years even happened. My question is, is this kind of behavior normal? Do you think she is hurting too? Right now I feel so confused by how she can just act as if the past year and a half never happened and I never meant anything to her.

 

Thanks to anyone who responds. This is my first time ever going through this so I guess I don't have anything to compare it to. Any feedback is really appreciated.

[mantlefan]

I remember for a couple months I imagined any noise I heard was her card door shutting outside as she got out to come in and run into my arms.

 

 

I still miss her terribly, but at least every sound I hear isn't her coming back.

[Strength in Healing]

Stay strong, brother. She sounds like a narcissist.

 

Girls like this always regret it later. Work on not letting her back into your life when that day comes, because you never want back girls like these.