Asinarath Posted March 25, 2014 Posted March 25, 2014 I'm at an absolute loss in my head right now. It's been 14 months since my last relationship ended, and I miss love more than anything. That feeling of loving someone, and being loved, is totally foreign to me now. However, I can't bring myself to pursue relationships. Both of the major relationships in my lifetime ended with me being cheated on and absolutely heartbroken. I have no trust left for people (I can't even absolutely trust my best friend of 20 years), and actively avoid meeting new people, or even seeing the people I already know. Once I even met someone I was interested in (and she seemed to be as well), but purposely left without getting her number. I can't deal with all that again, but, I just miss being happy with someone. More than anything. If someone out there can help me figure this out, please please let me know. I don't know how much longer I can deal like this.
Shocked Suzie Posted March 25, 2014 Posted March 25, 2014 (edited) I'm at an absolute loss in my head right now. It's been 14 months since my last relationship ended, and I miss love more than anything. That feeling of loving someone, and being loved, is totally foreign to me now. However, I can't bring myself to pursue relationships. Both of the major relationships in my lifetime ended with me being cheated on and absolutely heartbroken. I have no trust left for people (I can't even absolutely trust my best friend of 20 years), and actively avoid meeting new people, or even seeing the people I already know. Once I even met someone I was interested in (and she seemed to be as well), but purposely left without getting her number. I can't deal with all that again, but, I just miss being happy with someone. More than anything. If someone out there can help me figure this out, please please let me know. I don't know how much longer I can deal like this. I get this... I'm on similar timeframe. How I "on good days" get my head around 'well' my head, is to just tell myself to give myself a break and try not to put so much pressure on myself "easier said than done some days". opening up, talking to people... Getting different views, have your whole future pulled from underneath your feet and being dumped on makes you question every part of your makeup... Some days that's pretty hard to get your head around! I just think that finding that even ground again just sadly takes time and what you see and feel throughout is part if the learning process of building the new you so hopefully it doesn't happen again or at least our eyes will be open. For me I'm determined to ride this out and find inner happiness for myself rather than "thinking" someone else is essential to help me in gaining my happiness Time I suppose? To find that even ground now our eyes are more open Daily inner head battles too ... SS x Edited March 25, 2014 by Shocked Suzie
realfriends Posted March 25, 2014 Posted March 25, 2014 I have been cheated on before by someone I trusted with my life. I know how bad it hurts. Im only 5 months in but maybe this video will help you. Watch it twice. Once to watch and listen and the second time around close your eyes and take everything in. It has helped me with the trust issue.
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