SkylerJean Posted March 24, 2014 Posted March 24, 2014 I was absolutely crazy for this guy I met in high school. We were friends but I was totally in love with him for 5 years. I finally got the nerve to tell him how I felt like a year ago. He didn't feel the same so it kinda drifted apart a lot. We haven't even spoken since that happened. But we do see each other because we have a lot of the same friends. Anyway, I feel like I'm over him. I have a boyfriend who is amazing and we're really in love. But last night, a few friends had this little get together and my boyfriend and I were invited. I knew he'd be there but I never thought anything of it. It really isn't a big deal seeing him anymore. I'm over him. So we walk into the party, and I see him. My heart skipped a beat, but I still didn't think it was a big deal. Then he started walking towards me. I knew he wasn't really walking to me, but he was walking in my direction. As he got closer, my heart started beating faster and I felt my breathing getting faster. My ears began to get really got and my stomach was jumping. I kept taking deep breaths to try to calm down but my heart was pounding so hard I could feel it in my stomach and in my head. He passed me right by without so much as a look, and here I was having a panic attack. As soon as he was out of sight I was fine. What the heck was that about? I could have sworn I was over him, I've seen him 1000 times since we've stopped talking and this has never happened. What does this mean?
acrosstheuniverse Posted March 24, 2014 Posted March 24, 2014 I have no idea, maybe you were having a bad day. But feeling that way doesn't necessarily mean you aren't over him, so don't beat yourself up about it. I am 100% over both of my exes, but I sometimes wonder if I'm over the pain. It's weird though cos the more I see them, the less I feel anything. The ex that hurt me the most, the most serious one, I see him walking around now when I'm driving but we don't see one another any other time, and due to seeing him like that maybe 10 times I'm now 100% desensitised and it doesn't bother me. The one I broke up with most recently I haven't seen since we split and I'm sure that seeing him would absolutely gut me, just that cold frozen blood thing, even though I'm over him, would never want him back, and am happy with somebody new. Another guy that I was in love with I have to see once every few months at uni and because of this, and I think because we've socialised a little with other friends, I feel nothing. It's almost like seeing them a few times desensitises me and I'm past getting that heart thumping feeling. So it is kinda weird that you should have suddenly felt that about your ex, but who knows? Do you suffer from anxiety in general, are you susceptible to panic attacks?
Author SkylerJean Posted March 24, 2014 Author Posted March 24, 2014 No, I've never had an anxiety attack before. Was that what this was? It was really overwhelming!
FrostBlaze Posted March 24, 2014 Posted March 24, 2014 (edited) You say you are over him, but that's the general reaction you get when you aren't , as mucha as you say that you are, you expect him to say something to you because you still want him. Either that or the fact that he rejected you really hurt, so your body responds to it. So it's because you still want him or fear/hate him. I can't say for sure. Sometimes it's just awkward, some kind of shame?hmm idk. Edited March 24, 2014 by FrostBlaze
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