I hit my boyfriend for harassing his flatmates whilst drunk and high.

[zanzi]

I realise that this should probably sectioned under "abuse." But I really want some input here. Im not going to make any excuses for what I did. It was wrong. I punched him in the head a few times and made his nose bleed. I also kicked him. pulled his hair and that sort of thing.

 

He was very drunk and was hounding his flatmates for the rent they hand't payed. I told him to leave them alone and sort it out when he was sober and he said if I wasn't going to "have his back" I could take all my stuff and leave. This was at four in the morning and I had been in bed sick. When he grabbed my bags and started to try to throw them out the front door, I attacked him.

 

I have always been aware that I have anger problems. I have a mental disorder (depression) and have had some counselling but have never stopped feeling angry at life and most of the things in it. I feel bad about what I did. I have none to blame but myself. I didn't have to attack him, I could of just picked up my bags and walked without a word. But I snapped. It was my fault.

 

I have never punched anybody before this in my life. Im 22, female. I'm now afraid of what I am capable of. Because I don't know exactly what it is after what happened. Of course it is over (the relationship) after a year and a half to this kind of thing frequently going on (not the hitting but the drinking, me losing temper) and I am relieved that its over. I couldn't stand the drugs and drinking and no longer drink myself because I think it aggravates my condition. I feel lost, angry at myself and sorry for what I did. I feel like I need help but don't know exactly what kind of counselling I need, or whom.

[Conners]

Yes what you did was wrong but your boyfriend also sounds like a huge douchebag. I'm not excusing your actions and you've acknowledged that you have some anger problems.

 

Perhaps you should look into anger management counselling?