ariawuu Posted March 22, 2014 Posted March 22, 2014 (edited) It's been nearly a year since the end of my 4 year relationship with the ex. Long story short, i was happy to resume friendship as bffls, on a platonic level. However, I always felt strung along painfully, letting him disrespect me and mistreat me, while remaining loyal and still loving him unconditionally, despite that he does not deserve me at all. I kept warning him to be consistent with the way he treated me and be a 'straight bow and arrow' otherwise he would be complicating things and eventually risk damaging the friendship and bond we had..He told me that he still wanted to marry me and to 'trust him' while he kept hurting me and I never felt I could fully trust him. Last week, I was upset by an event that happened. His apologies didn't feel real, he had no empathy and we left each other speechless at the end of it. I was speechless of his vile character. He was definitely not a real best friend. I asked for time alone and took me 5 days of no contact to see that this confusing mess ball had to end. Today, he told me he was just okay with not talking to me and that he is happy and fine, still said i was his friend and all.. I'm really blown away how he can feel this way after being together for so long and I believed we had such a deep bond that he could just feel that way and not feel accountable for his actions and the hurt he has dragged me for such a long time. I'm just happy I found the hindering truth and the closure I needed to confirm I should always trust my higher self and my intuition, because they're there for a good reason. So now as much as I want to stop wasting any more of the time I have lost because of him, I am left questioning if he is some psychopath, some evil entity but I'm happy knowing he wasn't worth fighting for.All my friends are baffled from this and I'm just embarrassed how long I have held out for someone who was absolutely not worth the energy and time. And so I wanted to post this and warn anyone who is going through something similiar is to drop, leave and RUN. So there you have it everyone, this is the outcome you could find when you're friends with a (psycho) ex who is honestly as selfish as anyone can be. I still refuse to see him as anything but a decent person. And I pray that the universe will teach him lessons to become a better person. Sorry if it was a very difficult and unflowing post to read but I just wanted to get this posted out asap. Edited March 22, 2014 by ariawuu
flight E Posted March 22, 2014 Posted March 22, 2014 I understand how u feel but look closely, u will see that you contributed to him treating you this way. learn the lesson and move on
Author ariawuu Posted March 23, 2014 Author Posted March 23, 2014 I understand how u feel but look closely, u will see that you contributed to him treating you this way. learn the lesson and move on It was hard to leave and 'give up' when you carry the thought that you have nobody that cares and loves you the way he did. He kept trying to transplant the idea that he is the only person who would care so much about me and made me feel like I had nobody. Slowly, when I saw this toxic relationship I started to get connected with the friends I did have and now I'm sneaking my way out of this turmoil. I'm still very traumatised..
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