Mla Posted March 12, 2014 Posted March 12, 2014 I am wondering are others experiencing the same as me as I know no others out if my friends and family and feel abnormal how I cope and think following getting attached and breakin up I am the same with each of my three breakouts and notice a pattern, I am always unable to accept and come to terms tension hopeful consumed with thoughts everything relating to them even advice I'm give. Meant to be positive I turn around to them thinkin see they will get over me and not care too as I struggle to let go I picture scenarios in my head and torture myself but they seem automatic and I thus break up has been jus over three months and iv cried everyday and feel I'm gettin worse not better I believe I won't get what I had with that person again and don't want to look for anyone else even though I know he has and did straight away and as I get attached I feel I lose everything so bring with friends and family doesn't help as urs not with him and all joy and happiness seems to have left when he went Fed up if everyday feelin so sad and lonely I'm not happy on my own but I can't just replace as I was attached and struggling to move on I see life going on around me and he obviously getting on with his and I know I'm struggle to accept and deal with reality but it's not changin how I feel daily I'm worried how long il be stuck in this place yet I know if we got back would never work as trust not there so feel ridiculous but it's hard as I experienced things and connections I never had before was perfect in everyway and jus do scared il never find it again and right now nobody compares and I'm jus not bothered or attracted to anyone else it's like I don't want to move on even tho I know I have to :,( Iv never let him know I feel like this I did all right things changed my number cut contact and blocked him on all social sites and emails Etc but was also to protect myself as before I knew he moved on I can't handle seein or hearing but wen I found out I checked once and thought she was beautiful and knocked my confidence so much :,( I jus feel so lost and empty it's been three months he has moved on and I can't believe his I am still my friends and family jus dunno wa to say anymore even uv given up on myself jus can't imagine bein without him still and would kill me if I seen him yet I walk out and about wondering if I'd bump into him ! I do right things cutting contact yet find myself doing this recently three months in doesn't make sense even to myself Does anyone feel as hopeless as this and get these attachment issues and think in same ways?
Author Mla Posted March 17, 2014 Author Posted March 17, 2014 So I posted few days ago explaining how it's been about three and a half months since I split from ex and I feel I been getting a bit worse not better as he lived on straight away and I'm stuck as I was attached and idealising him and think wrong way thinkin il never get what I has with him again or the attraction and connection as is never experienced that before I'm comparing to others struggling to accept n move on and my negativity doesn't help and any advice I'm given I turn around to him thinkin see he will get better than me etc everythin is relating to him music places thoughts it's hard After one of worst nights I had an email came through but I had blocked him on there and fb and changed my number so insure how it came through, I always thought if I heard anything would be nice but knew contact was no good, but it simply said lol!!! Ain't it funny what you hear along the grape vine!! U wanna get some self respect!!! Iv no idea what he referring to or why he even emailed me I left it hours and ended up replyin simply to stick up for myself and wanted him to realise people talk bout him too n told him not to reply Iv not seen him since we split and ironically following this the next day I accidentally seen him with his new gf n their daughter they didn't see me and I was upset I have been everyday since split and feeling lost and I'm angry with myself knowin how long it takes me to move on n try get over someone yet he got on with life straight away and is not moping depressed empty list and upset everyday like me I want to canoe this n struggling to do so I dun wan waste anymore time like this but scared I will cause of how I'm thinkin n feeling ;,(
HeartbrokenNewbie Posted March 17, 2014 Posted March 17, 2014 Hes heard something and he's angry... clearly not over u x I would ignore x
Author Mla Posted March 17, 2014 Author Posted March 17, 2014 Thanks for reply, unfortunately I did respond simply to defend myself and state he shouldn't be emailing me! He has a new gf so I dunno why he felt the need to send it whether angry or not and it's made me feel like ****, I dunno what's been said and it's prob not true but he had cheek to even express opinion he is no longer entitled as far as I'm concerned it's made me angry and I hope it sticks as iv still remained in he upset and moping stage all this time and I knw Angry stage is where I need to be at!!!
Author Mla Posted March 18, 2014 Author Posted March 18, 2014 So I get more emails today which I have not responded to He didn't say what was said jus explained he didn't like hearin me bein topic of convo in pub n he thinks more of me than tht apologised for bothering and said he had tried few times to contact me bout it amongst other things - dun eve.n know what tht means! He sent another email straight after advising guy he saw in my car was hanging and then went on to say he needs a gym partner and for me to join his gym lol! It's makin me stronger realising he would treat me like that too and I'm tempted to forward these emails to jus new gf to stop him contactin me and also cos y should he get away with sendin em and I remember her laughing in background on phone before I knew about em and I feel like makin her see she bein treated same way so it's laughable!
No Limit Posted March 18, 2014 Posted March 18, 2014 You're not alone in that boat. A friend's big sister shared a few texts with us the other day, her ex who cheated on her is now together with the girl he cheated with and now he constantly begs for attention and how the sex with her new one sucks.
Author Mla Posted March 20, 2014 Author Posted March 20, 2014 Well I seen then together Sunday and don't think they noticed me I was diving about with a friend actually looking around and when I dropped my friend off and stopped lookin that's when I seen them felt sad thinkin they playing happy families On tue I had email respondin to me sayin he shouldn't be contactin me sayin he didn't wanna argue jus didn't like hearing me being topic of convo in pub as he thinks more of than that and apologised for bothering explaining he tried getting hold of me few times about it amongst other things???? Still dunno what he hear he sent another email saying btw hi in your car Sunday was hanging lol (never realised he saw me and that guy was my friend!) and then said I need a training partner come join planet fitness I couldn't believe how he thinks it's ok to say these things and imply training together! I ignored and I know it's petty but I posted emails on fb but him n his friends blocked anyway and I captioned it wonder wa his gf thinks I wouldn't be happy! Felt good saying tht as she was laughing in background on phone before I knew bout them but felt I had last laugh now! He must gav found out as had another email sayin lmao your a sad girl fp me and her finished a week ago and don't take tht as a come on as it ain't! I ignored tht too and I he still a liar as he was with her Sunday makes me realise how he really is but makes me think my relationship wasn't was I thought it was I thought it was special between us as he said but I feel he can jus b like tht with anyone and move on quickly now but this contact has helped in a way thinkin he will never change! But can't believe him how he thinks he can comment on my life n choices etc Tried blockin email on phone won't work ever since I had this new phone they come through as he still blocked on laptop on email account so I don't understand I still miss him and the good and the connection feel nuts sayin it I hope this motivates me to move on! I jus dunno I he bothered contacting he will get back with tht girl and may even have Ben lying bout finishin but he so malicious with his words I hope I don't hear now I always thought if I heard he would be nice to me like he was to his ex when we rowed and he tried contactin her how wrong was I
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