IHavNOclue Posted March 18, 2014 Posted March 18, 2014 We broke up Thursday. It was our 5th anniversary and he stayed out all night and wasn't heard from until 2:00 pm. (He's 42) This is the 3rd time since Sept. we have parted ways due to similar BS but his dad died in Dec so I came back to support him thru that. The drinking has gotten worse over the years but especially here lately. I defriended him on FB and told him not to text or call me again unless he's been sober for 6 months. He tried to re-add me yesterday but I declined and now I look and he's blocked me. I'm not sure why it makes a difference but I almost threw up. It would be one thing if I fell out of love with him but I still love him so I can't stand this. I'm not sure why blocking seems so much worse than defriending but somehow it just does. I mean back in the "olden days" when you broke up you couldn't stalk anyone online or text them…right? To make matters worse his co-worker has been talking to me about him and agrees he needs help. In the meantime she posted one of those stupid quotes on his page about how true love is accepting everything about the person you love..bla bla bla. (I know this bc another friend told me). Who's side is she on anyway? That's not helping matters to make me look like the bad guy!! He NEEDS HELP!!! Should I accept him as is?????? I always think "Oh shut the FK UP" when I see quotes like that. It's just not accurate. I think it will probably be easier since he blocked me, I just can't believe he did it. I immediately wanted to text him but I came here instead. Me texting him just scratches my itch. It doesn't solve anything. If anything it opens the line of communication up long enough for him to pull me back in, but nothing gets resolved. Even being logical I still feel so sick over this. My birthday is this week and I'll be 41. I'll have my friends around me, but It's going to be so weird to be without him. On the flip side I spent last year babysitting HIM on my bday. I guess that's one less thing I'll have to deal with. Still... I miss his kisses. And his smell. And his voice. And his arms around me. I feel panic and denial. We are broke up. OH. MY. GOD.
David87 Posted March 18, 2014 Posted March 18, 2014 Wow, First of all welcome to LS, second of all calm down and third of all Happy Birth day! I'm not sure who is the dumper but i'm asuming it's you. I think that you need to let things calm down a little. Don't contact him for now. In fact you already told him that he needs to quit drinking if he wants to have a nother chance with you.
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