Naomi_1996 Posted March 13, 2014 Posted March 13, 2014 I found this forum while desperately searching the web for a site where I could get help. I know that this post is going to be really long, but it is important that you know this whole situation in order to give advice. Something happened a few months ago and I've been indescribably insecure and depressed. I am just hopeless at this point. I ended my relationship with my boyfriend last year in April. We were together for ten months. I broke up with him because he cheated on me and I felt that he wasn't there for me when I needed him. He was devastated by this and begged me that he would change. He apologized numerous times and he insisted that we try again but I didn't give in. I admit that I was arrogant and wanted him to suffer from his mistakes. I was happy that he was out of my life. Last September our town got a new student who came from a rural town in England. I kept hearing about this "stunning 15-year-old British girl" who moved here. This girl turned out to be the hottest topic of discussion ever since she set foot in this country. Apparently her friends at her school insisted that she make a Facebook account, so when she did I looked her up. You know how people say that someone is so beautiful they take your breath away? It turns out that saying is actually true. I actually gasped when I saw this girl. I was just in awe and was speechless, she was so indescribably beautiful. Everyone agrees that she is probably the most beautiful girl in the world. All the boys at my school post pictures of her on Facebook, Twitter, or Instagram saying things like: "This is the definition of beautiful," "Can I meet this girl already?" and "The most beautiful girl in the world." I constantly heard about her. I couldn't even go out and be at the mall without hearing this girl's name somewhere. Even people who weren't in high school knew about her. I heard through a friend last November that she began dating my ex. When I heard this I literally went numb. I stood there for what seemed like an eternity. My self esteem took the biggest hit that anybody could possibly experience. I couldn't believe that he was dating her. Why did he have to be dating her? Why couldn't it be anyone else in the world? I am extremely jealous of this girl now. I hate her, and I don't even know her well. I can't accept that my ex found someone better than me. Why is she better than me? Let me explain everything: 1) She's unbelievably beautiful: This girl turned every girl I thought was beautiful into a plain jane. When I say she is beautiful I mean BEAUTIFUL, so beautiful you couldn't possibly imagine, it's beyond your comprehension, and beyond mine until today. She is more beautiful than Megan Fox, Jessica Alba, Mila Kunis, Adriana Lima, Angelina Jolie, or any woman you can name! Numerous people have agreed with this as well. She has long silver blonde hair, violet-blue eyes, a perfect body, flawless skin, and a cute British accent. And she NEVER wears makeup. She is unimaginably beautiful, especially for her age. I am beautiful but compared to her I'm nothing. The only way I can be really beautiful is if I wear makeup, and this girl is unbelievably stunning without it, so it makes me feel like crap. Plus, her accent makes me look inferior. 2) She's smart: Apparently she is only 15 years old but has gone through extensive espionage training. She has already began doing jobs with intelligence agencies. She is very quick thinking and can solve problems easily. I am on the honor roll at my school and get good grades, but hey, that doesn't matter right? People find it cooler that you're a spy working for the CIA. Apparently that's real intelligence. 3) She's talented: She is a world class athlete, gymnast, acrobat, and aerialist. She is an expert martial artist and can do various forms of martial arts like karate, judo, ninjutsu, aikido, savate, kung fu, and boxing. She is also a marksman and weapons specialist, which is what she is currently doing for these intelligence agencies. One time she came to my school and practically beat up every guy on the wrestling team as a demo. It was absolutely amazing. She also joined this circus show called Cirque Du Soleil and is currently the star of that show. She has been featured on the news numerous times. My talents are playing the piano and the violin. I am also an accomplished ballerina. But compared to what she does? What I do is literally nothing. 4) She's rich: This girl goes to a private high school in our town that is exclusively for rich families. Her parents are millionaires and own this gorgeous mansion in an extremely rich town. My ex posted pictures of her house on Instagram when he went to meet her parents, and their house in indescribable. She is also treating my boyfriend and his family on trips! Last January, for the ex's birthday, she brought them on a trip to Hawaii. This month she took them to Paris for a week. Anyone with eyes would know that my ex did better. I asked my closest friends if they thought she was prettier than me. They agreed. I already knew this but it hurt to hear it from my best friends. Even my best friends are dying to meet her and can't stop talking to her. They seem indifferent to me when they talk about her because they know it bothers me. I saw my ex's parents at a grocery store when they first started going out, but they didn't see my because I was in another isle. I overheard the conversation and I heard his mom say, "Dani is so much better for Ryan than Naomi ever was. I'm so glad they're dating." I went to the mall with my friends one time and we saw my ex and his girlfriend. The reactions of people were crazy. It seemed like time stopped and everyone's jaw literally dropped when they set eyes on her. People began calling their friends to see her and people began taking out their cameras to take a picture of her. As if this isn't enough, I'm being compared to her in my own house! My mom came home to me one day ranting about how she had a client from England and her daughter was the most beautiful girl she had ever seen. I didn't even need to ask who she was talking about. My mom eventually learned a lot about this girl and when she did, she began comparing me. My mom bought tickets to one of her Cirque Du Soleil shows and dragged me with her. After the show my boyfriend went on stage, gave her flowers, and they hugged. My mom was like, "She's dating your ex?" as if I'm stupid. Then when we got in the car she started ranting about how she wished that she put me in acrobatics and karate as a child because she wanted me to be just like this girl. My mom pressured me to play instruments and do dance since I was five and all of a sudden her mindset changed because of this girl. It has been five months since my ex moved on. Every single day it just eats me up more and more. I am so depressed, angry, and insecure. I can't escape this situation because I'm hearing about it everywhere. It kills me that he is now with someone out of this world beautiful, smart, rich, and insanely talented. I don't think I'll ever get over this, but what should I do?
mtnbiker3000 Posted March 13, 2014 Posted March 13, 2014 (edited) TBH - I didn't read this whole thing. But the snippets I did read, it's apparent that you are making this girl out to be some kind of super-human. We all do this when going through heartbreak. Just try to remmeber you are an awesome person in your own right. You have a ton of value and are deserving of happiness and will find a great guy and be happy. Forget about her. Besides, she's 15. I have underwear older than her. Seriously!! Even if things are falling in place for her now, who knows what the next 2, 5 10, 15 years hold in store for her? She might be toothless and gross with skin like leather And, if she is so great, how long do you thing she will keep your ex around? My guess... not long!! Unless he lives at the Fortress of Solitude Edited March 13, 2014 by mtnbiker3000
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