Finally going no contact...

[innocentbutterfly]

So there's another thread about my idiotic ex. Long story short, I investigated, yes, I know, I shouldnt. And I found out he has a long distance relationhip, AGAIN! And lied to me a whole month (despite having discussed it before trying to be friends that when one starts a relationship it will have to end) and kept reminiscing fantasies with me. When I pointed it out he said, well, what, its my life, I can do what I want, I didnt force you to them. Its not like I participated, but he kept going with them, everytime we talked, so it wasnt really friendship. He is the dumper btw.

 

Get this, he said, yes I have a gf now, but I'll never ask you to stop talking to me when you have a bf (theres a new guy I like and he knew it, yet still continued fantasies) and if you want a fanstasy with me, you can say whenever you want. I know you want it, dont say no to me. - his words.

 

So let me recap this, he has a gf, shes away once more kilometers than I was. I know he doesnt have a passport and doesnt wanna travel. I saw her she seems old, in her late 30's. He's 26. And she isnt even beautiful lol. Her body is good, but that about it. I guess he just wants sex and he calls her a gf, because she's a slut like him and she lets him "play around" with other women.

 

What a joke, huh?

 

Anyway, with fake profile I found out she knew him for 3 years, two of them we were together. Shady? Yes. And she said she was in his country many times before. He swears he never cheated on me, but when I heard this, I think he is such a liar and she may have visited and ****ed with him before while he was dragging me around, making me visit him, losing my virginity with him and get that. When asked if she knew about it, she says he said I'm not his gf. That I'm just a slut. Can you imagine?

 

I put my life into that guy, we planned future, kids, marriage. And I get this title?

 

Obviusly I didnt mention it. It's not worth it. But what a bastard he is. Even if she made it up. I hope they both get burned.

 

He still has hot videos of me which I asked him to delete before I said goodbye. He lied to me one time before that he deleted them and now said no problem, then in same breath he said why it matters if I got them, like he can watch them ater sometime if he wants. I really hope he deletes them. There's many of them.

 

 

And yes, no contact. FINALLY. It was the last thing for me to finally realize he is insane. No, he must be. He said he can still do fantasies/online sex with me while having this gf that is in reality his online **** buddy tho he will never admit?

 

I find it hilarious. Her ugliness and how he said before he doesnt like blondes and he took that. At least it made me realize everything.

And there's this new guy that is really nice. Though he is also from his country.

 

However, yes, finally applying no contact.

I hope I never hear from him again.

He always thought that it was a privilege for me that he stayed friends with me and talked after a breakup, because he never believed in friendship after breaking up and always reminded me how I can just go my own way if I will eat his nerves and cross any lines. So there, he can eat his **** of friendship. What an ego, huh?

Then he dares to say oh maybe we talk again someday after a long time, when he never wanted it? and wishes me the best and says how I deserve it because I'm a good girl? And a day before he sends me kisses and says bye my sexy ex, see you later. What a douche.

 

I'm glad it's over. I had to rant. And to all of you out there, don't give up. You will get there.

 

I despise him now, is that still a feeling? Well, even if it is, I like it. I feel like at least he got what he deserved. An ugly phantom girlfriend and he will need a long time to get a serious relationship with his stupid morals and mentality, if ever. Seriously, I can't stand him.

Edited March 12, 2014 by innocentbutterfly

[David87]

Well Innocentbutterfly what you found out about your ex and his new gf..is a tough pill to swallow. The nerve those people have to talk like this about you behind your back.

 

In a way it's better that you find out, at least now you know what kind of people you dealt with. And you got closure. Happy to hear that you are NC now.

[innocentbutterfly]

Thank you, even I am glad and its such a relief.

 

After I did it I felt like a huge burden just rolled off my shoulders. Everytime he wrote me and kept going into those dirty talks thinking I'm his sexual toy and he has control over me still I despised him more. I was so annoyed everytime he wrote when at the beggining I actually thought how this means he still cares. I know, very foolish. I was still holding on after everything. How stupid of me.

 

The worst part is he agreed to friendship and told me the day I said goodbye that I'm a special person for him yet he dared to throw it in my face that its his life and him having a girlfriend wasn't my business when he knew all about my life still. I mean a real friend would share that info, right? Besides having agreed when there's relationship that I won't watch him be happy he still lied and I had to find it out like this and finding out whole 2 years this woman claimed how they knew each other for 3 years, how it may all have been a lie. It was just too much to take on. Even if he kept repeating it twice that he never cheated on me, every bone in my body was screaming to get away, far away from him, because it may all have been lies. It doesn't even matter. It was a final blow and my closure point.

 

Maybe that's not the way we should feel about our exes, despising them. And I'm not a bad person, but I just couldn't watch him be happy, not after what he did to me. I did say I wish him well too, but I didn't mean it. I'm not bad person for that am I?

[David87]

No you're not a bad person and karma takes care of people who build their happiness on other peoples sorrow.

[innocentbutterfly]

Well, I do believe in karma too. I saw it happen before. I don't know if it happens to everyone, but I know it's real. Some people don't believe it, but I do.

 

And I do hope there's a time for him when it visits too.