cholee Posted March 11, 2014 Posted March 11, 2014 Yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend we had been dating for 2 months after breaking up for 5 months last year and before that we dated for 6 months so it was our second time dating. After being frustrated and unhappy for awhile I thought it was time even though I still liked him and cared for him he wasn’t putting in any effort and I felt lonely and unhappy I know I could of kept going on with the relationship and I keep thinking to myself now maybe I should of waited longer it may of gotten better L . I was expecting a simple breakup (because it was our second one) but when I ended things and had "the talk" he started crying (when I told my friend she said I don’t understand why he would cry when he never showed you that he really liked you) I said I know I was surprised too!.....He also opened up to me for the first time he took responsibility saying I am such a selfish person and I cant help it I ruin things because I am so selfish my family and friends tell me all the time but I have tried to change and I cant. I have this front I come off so confident and happy (which he does) he said he’s really unhappy and not confident(bipolar runs in his family) and he said my mood swings sometimes worry me and I have often wondered if something is wrong with me because I can be so up and down so fast. He said he is never happy with anything in his life he is really hard on himself and is never satisfied he is always wanting more. (Which has now made me feel bad because when we were dating was he wanting a better partner? Was I not good enough for him?) he said when we made things official it changed things making it a serious commitment and expectations were expected. He said he doesn't like being tied down not that I tied him down at all he said I let him do whatever he wanted which he appreciated he said perhaps he isn’t the relationship type he has a hard time taking relationships seriously because of his parents (they are divorced) when he was It was both our first serious relationship at the age of 23 which is why when we dated I tried to understand, and it would take time about a week ago we had a phone conversation about us and I said that I wasn’t sure if this relationship was progressing and he agreed (what I meant by that was that we only saw each other once a week( which was not enough for me and I couldn’t stress that enough I wanted to see him twice a week) and when we did we never went out and did things we would just hang out at eachother’s house, and he never invited me out with his friends nor did I, I met his dad a bunch of times because he lives with him and we would have dinner and stuff.) When we had that phone convo he said he doesn’t put any priority ahead of the other ie. Friends family and me he said he wanted a healthy balance but that he wanted to keep trying and that he thought time was the issue and that if we gave it more time it would all work out so I said ok I wish he would of confessed to me what he did the night I broke up with him! I tried to understand his work schedule He would work 7-5pm Monday to Thursday and would sometimes go to the gym when he got home but sometimes I would think if he really liked me he would come see me or I could come see him one of those nights just for a bit but no which really hurt me. He also said he was scared of falling in love.. I didn’t expect him to say all that he said when we broke up so now im left with thoughts and questions! Before he left my house I could tell he was hurting and angry he kept pinching me or grabbing me hard like he was trying to hurt me. He asked if we could be friends I said no he asked if we could text I said it wasnt a good idea he said perhaps in 5 months or so I said yeah well see. I obviously want to talk to him but I will never move on otherwise. (sorry if this post is all over the palce I tried to put down everything that I could remember)
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