bookthief Posted March 7, 2014 Posted March 7, 2014 It was my first sexual experience, and I was just beginning to really like him. He was sweet and playful, and he made my first time really easy and fun. He was older and he knew what he was doing. I don't really encounter people that I'm interested in romantically very often. The dates were unbelievably good, and the physical stuff was great too. I'd just gotten used to the idea of having someone to explore, and he'd make references to things we could explore in the future, and how we were becoming an item. It only went on for about a month, and then he broke it off via fade-out. I can't stop thinking about the amazing times that we had, and how I could have changed things that I'd done that might have driven him away. I'm crying everyday, it's completely out of character for me to care this much. I'm worried that I'm being pathetic for mourning something so short lived and casual, but I'm really feeling the pain of losing that physical intimacy, and just the general happiness of seeing someone I was really into. I can't even think about wanting that with anyone else. Is this because it's been my only experience? Will this go away if I find someone else?
David87 Posted March 7, 2014 Posted March 7, 2014 It was my first sexual experience, and I was just beginning to really like him. He was sweet and playful, and he made my first time really easy and fun. He was older and he knew what he was doing. I don't really encounter people that I'm interested in romantically very often. The dates were unbelievably good, and the physical stuff was great too. I'd just gotten used to the idea of having someone to explore, and he'd make references to things we could explore in the future, and how we were becoming an item. It only went on for about a month, and then he broke it off via fade-out. I can't stop thinking about the amazing times that we had, and how I could have changed things that I'd done that might have driven him away. I'm crying everyday, it's completely out of character for me to care this much. I'm worried that I'm being pathetic for mourning something so short lived and casual, but I'm really feeling the pain of losing that physical intimacy, and just the general happiness of seeing someone I was really into. I can't even think about wanting that with anyone else. Is this because it's been my only experience? Will this go away if I find someone else? Of course it will be ok sweetie. It's normal to feel this way because he was your first. The thing is you'll remember him your whole life I'm guessing that you are very young, stay single for awhile.
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