b_boo22 Posted January 22, 2005 Posted January 22, 2005 HI, ive been dating this guy for almost two years. and i now have the feeling of it is over. This would not be my choice but we grown apart and i don't know how get us back to the way we were. we've had a lot of problems and now i'm sitting at home and can't stop thinking of how i just need to move on. on thurs. he called me at 12: 39am and i then went to sleep. friday when i came home from work @2pm he hadn't called and hadn't answered i called him hundreds of times by 4pm he finally answered and said i just woke up. he had left thurs. night at 1am (30 mins after talking to me) and went 6 hours away, to i guess a friends house. i have been there before where he went. but yet i was mad hurt jealous and sad to find out he didn't even bother telling me he left. i started crying but he had to hang up cause he's phone was roaming. he text me saying he loved me and that he wrote our names in the sand. even though it was freezing outside. i text-ed him back say so! and told him i was mad and sad and that i can't say where this leaves us. i called him later on last night (fri.) but he didn't answer i called like every hour. now its almost 4pm on sat and ive text-ed him several times . say please just call and stuff like y are you ignoring me? i don't understand y he hasn't trying calling me. i called his mother cause he still leave at home to see if he was back and she said no but he did call her last night . made me feel even worst cause he called her and not me after i had text-ed and called him. i'm very sad. and know if i end it ill never have another chance with him and i know ill get very depressed. his my life and i'm a very caring person. i kind of want to end it cause i'm afraid he cheated on me there and thats y he hasn't called. i have no friends. i lost every single one when i graduated. i do attend college but i live at home. i have several ppl. i talk to about everyday stuff but yet i don't have anyone to talk to about personal things. i feel all alone and don't know what to do. i dont' want to stay with someone whom i don't trust but yet i don't want to leave the one i've know and been so close to? what do i do?
Broken3112 Posted January 23, 2005 Posted January 23, 2005 I'm so sorry for the way you are feeling. I myself have very few friends after the breakup, and yet there were a few to talk to...and when they werent there it felt so lonely. Like you said you have drifted apart, so do you love him? Since you are alone with no friends, the difficulty you are going through is attachment. You feel like you would be left with nothing were this to end. 1. You need to find some friends. You used to have them. You would be surprised how many old friends are willing to help out even after a long time of no contact. Try and think back to the people who might have been there or you were there for. 2. I think you need to sit down and talk to your bf about things. My GF didnt and over time she broke off with me without knowing how much I still do love her so much but had forgotten it and let it slip down somewhere deep inside me. If we had talked it out things would have turned out a lot better. I hope you can make things better, but only if you think the relationship is truly worth saving or not. You have to think about that decision realy hard. Good luck and peace be with you.
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