lj3 Posted February 28, 2014 Posted February 28, 2014 (edited) So I dont wanna give up. I admit im a doormat. I lived with this woman for 3 years went from everything to nothing. Found her talking to other guys especially this one in prison. I thought she changed and was seduced only to be used and manipulated by this sociopath for labor and rent money. Drove me insane is an understatement and I still am grieving. I gave her a letter first year to show trust and confidence. Found out two years later she had been sending this prison inmate monet and books and letters etc..I found pendants bought online with his and her name on it. Letters speaking of marriage and a bridesmaid dress ordered online.. (she barely knows this guy!) Ive been compared to him and mentally abused. I do love her but not her lies and deception. I still love her and cant let go no matter what I do whosays what and I should leave her I still go back for mental torture..recently I didnt talk to her for 3 months and we got back together AGAIN and it was better than ever for 3 weeks..she talked of moving to another state being faithful...etc and we thought we both changed! Well I promised not to look for cheating and she promised to be faithful. So when things went bad arguements..I looked and found with not as much surprise. She was still writing mr convict and giving him money and lied again I guess just to mess with my head...im screwed up and its hard..there was money my home my dog I haye to blame but she screwed my life and mind up bad! She makes it seem like its my fault, I didnt appreciate, im not good enough in some way mind u I bent over backwards for her. Always wonder what if etc...why is he better what did I do wrong..etc ...I know what he looks like I know a lot aboit him and her due to searching for truth..shes mad cuz I put the truth in her face.. I wont give up still to this day no matyer what anyone says cuz im in denial and I think she will change if I change..ive been through so much wi th her emotional torture..honestly im weak and dont have much money so I feel lower etc...insists my dog I miss her I miss my home with her and I believe she is a sociopath and still love her kind side not evil side of course..anyway this is my way of venting and getting other opinions any would prob. Help..im screwed mentally and have been for a lo nggg time... Edited February 28, 2014 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
kpkballer Posted February 28, 2014 Posted February 28, 2014 I used to date a woman a few years back Who i found out a few months in she was still with this guy in jail. I knew before that was her ex boyfriend and said it was over. i read a letter she hid in her room from him that states otherwise. I confronted her about it and she kept telling me it has been over for years but was just there for emotion support. That was total BS! I "believed" her and i found out a few months later she was still going down to see him. What is going to happen When he gets out of prison? She will probably stay around him from what im hearing. I left mine before he got out of jail and as soon as he got out they got together. I would get out ASAP like i did.she doesnt respect you is Why she keeps lying to you talking to another man.
kpkballer Posted February 28, 2014 Posted February 28, 2014 Its one thing to want someone back If you guys broke up for mistakes that were made. But, it is another to know that your woman CONSTANTLY talks to other men behind your back while in a relationship. I know its hard but, cut her off ASAP. You did Nothing Wrong from what you posted, she has issues not you. Dont let her put you down and blame you for everything. A relationship is 50/50 always. I dont want to soins mean but, it seems as If she will not change. On to the Next one.. you can and will get thru this bro..
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