chir Posted February 27, 2014 Posted February 27, 2014 Hi all, I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 months. Seem short but still it hurts. I met him 2 months after I broke up from the love of my life. By then I was just feeling normal again. Just when I was able to smile and back to my chirpy self again . He did not exactly caught my attention because he is 5 years younger and a foreigner working in my country. In any case, he fall for me and maybe I was still vulnerable deep down n as always. I am someone craving for love. To be pampered and all. We grew close n yet he don't want me as his gf citing the excuse that he just broke off 4 mths ago. And don't want to be in a relationship. And most importantly, he thinks he can't control me as in I'm too smart for him..which I don't think so. He is a smart person whether in academic or work. In any case I tried to get away from this non existent relationship thrice. As I feel so Unwanted that I'm not good enough for him. But went back thrice because I already grew attached to him. Maybe it is his attention his company.. Finally as we get closer he acknowledged me as his gf.. as in he introduce me as his gf. Though somehow all along I feel something missing.. The kiss is not right, our character though clicks there is still so differences, language barrier.. even though we both speak English and are fluent. I know deep down he prefer to speak his language and his group of friends all speak their mother tongue. I stepped into this relationship with the feelin of rejection from him and even though he treated me soo well I still feel he is holding back. While most of u will say this is a good move. .i feel this attribute to the break up He is a virgin .. n intend to keep it till he is married. He likes to be around girls but never for sex. Just to enjoy their company as friends and to look gd on him as the most of his gal friends are pretty n flock to him he is one of a kind bcoz of this virgin think. That's y I want to give us a try However as our relationship progress..It does hurt at time when I know he is still distancing himself. He doesn't see a future with me that's why he is so going to make love to me in any case, I broke off with him last Sunday night. Told him we are not suitable He is not seeing future with me, language barrier and all.. And he readily agree..just like the past times only diff is the last few times he miss me like crazy
Author chir Posted February 27, 2014 Author Posted February 27, 2014 And take me back when i go back eagerly..The last time he even beg me to stay till he is ready to let me go.. Remember he will let me go because he cnt promise me anything. Just he beg for time to adjust. anyway this time, he feel so hurt by me when I said I want to break up and said i pushed his limits. And he is done with me when i almost regret instantly when i want to break up. He is super firm with his decision despite me begging him msging him since Sunday to yest. despite me wanting to die cut myself and all.. i beg him to meet me for the last time but he wouldn't. I said i need to see him to survive. He asked me not to be selfish he need NOT to see me to survive. He is traumatised by this whole issue. today is 1st day NC. I miss him .. yet i knoe i don't love him didn't even find him suitable. Still i hope i can make things out if he ever come back. I will treat him nasty and give my all..which i admit i was quite nasty to him coz i feel rejected by him and i want to protect myself. I doubt he will come bck as i send him a long msg saying. .i really though of a future with him And all i will do for him. .shift to his country which is less developed then mine Learnt his mother tongue. .He came back and said he really can't be with me and i deserve better n stuff like that and i didn't contact him since which is yest. maybe is all for the better..but i still miss him and remember our times tog.. The laughter and fun... i miss him. N hope to make things right. But no more chance will be given
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