Strength in Healing Posted February 27, 2014 Posted February 27, 2014 Every night I have a round of 3-5 dreams of her and me. Things like, why we broke up, Things like me talking to our somewhat mutual friend, her co-worker, whom she started talking to the second she broke up with me. The worst of all, I constantly have dreams where we work it out. I know what my mind is doing, and my heart. It's telling me to reach out to her and say we spent 4 years together, let's get counseling. She had a son from a previous relationship who called me dad for 4 years. That part sucks too. He lost me because of her. A side note, she has borderline PD and bipolar. She would fight with me basically from the beginning, and after 2-3 years I started turning defensive towards her. Kept my wall up. We argued more, I was colder. I said mean stuff finally back. I wish I didn't. Not sure what to do now. It's been 3 weeks NC. I flipped on her the last time I saw her, because the last time I saw her was when I found out she was over at that co-workers house. So hard now. The dreams are telling me to contact her because I know I could convince her to work it out. Btu I haven't broken. Haven't given the power back to her.
shakenbake9 Posted March 3, 2014 Posted March 3, 2014 That is normal. I have the SAME thing happening to me. I have multiple dreams of times spent with my ex and its mind torturing when you wake up. Then you just sit there for a little feeling down on yourself. I deal with borderline personalities and Bi-Polar Disorder daily. I know how difficult that can be.
mantlefan Posted March 3, 2014 Posted March 3, 2014 So often I wake up and think for half a second that everything with my ex and I is fixed, or at least that she is TRYING. But that doesn't last long.
David87 Posted March 3, 2014 Posted March 3, 2014 This happened to me last night. I dreamed my ex after 1.5 months. In the dream she was with her new boyfriend and when I saw them I tried to avoid them, but she reached out and asked me how I am. I caved In and I told her '' look how my life turned out to be after you left me, I'm a total mess and I'm tired of all this casual dates and meaningless sex''. She gave me the impression that she did this because the circumstances and that she still loves me very much. I woke up so depressed...... So I can relate to your story about dreams, sometimes I hate waking up that's how bad I miss her
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