TheNewMe2014 Posted February 25, 2014 Posted February 25, 2014 I don't know if this is a question or simply a comment. But I used to have a strong relationship with G-d and through my 20's and 30's I lost that relationship. It never went away, but was put on the back burner. I don't think my faith waned at all - it just wasn't at the forefront of things. Let's say I did things I wasn't always proud of, but I never doubted he was there and still was thankful every night for the things in my life. Though it was difficult asking for things since I could be a better person. About a month ago, for selfish reasons - I distanced myself from somethings that I felt was corrupting me as person more than I'd like. Nothing awful - but still not being the best person I could be. It wasn't that I was trying to get closer to G-d. I just was tired of the way I was living my life. Though it felt like as soon as I made those changes, he re-entered actively supporting me. The dark spot on my heart started disappearing and the light was returning... I went on vacation and met someone I really liked. Through the trip, I started to pray and hope that I could get closer to that person. At one point I passed a church. Now, I'm not Christian..I'm not Jewish. I came from a mixed religious house and built my relationship with G-d based on personal discovery and Bible reading. I remember back when I had a closer relationship, I would go and sit in church and pray and talk to him about my life. I always felt warmer, better, and more content. The issue with this woman was weighing on me heavily and I wanted to gain some insight. I went in prayed and thanked him for everything I had, for not giving up on me when I went through the last 20 years, and asked for his assistance finding the true relationship that I have never had and always wanted. I spent a long time that day sitting and praying. Since that point, I've rekindled my relationship with him very strongly. I've trusted in him even when it would typically have been difficult. My life, at this moment, is better than it has ever been in my life. When it comes to this relationship - it seems like whatever challenge or question I have - it's like the Red Sea parting and the answer or the path is made clear. Sometimes too easily. When I get stressed, I fall back on trusting him. As a person who likes things to be tangible, it's sometimes tough to let myself go and trust. It's come to the point that even if this relationship doesn't work out - I trust in him that there's a reason and the right one will come along. But at times, I still have trouble just letting go. No one is going to convince me that my experiences aren't spiritual and real (for no other reason than when I was in College I got the most obvious response to a request from him and will never doubt him in my life). But I'm hoping for additional examples that are similar or encouragement. Like I said, I don't have doubts..but sometimes it tough to just let myself go and trust in him. I do and maybe I don't deserve to be comfortable - but hoping some have stories that solidify my experiences.
angel.eyes Posted March 4, 2014 Posted March 4, 2014 That's precisely what faith means--listening to God calling us, believing his message of love, grace, and salvation, letting go, and trusting His plan for our lives. Blessings in your walk with Him. 1
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