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Selfish :( I'm so sad I wanna disappear forever!


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Long ago I posted something about how messy my ldr was because he was too controlling. After that, we solved a lot of things and my partner was willing to change in what was needed for both of us to feel comfortable and still respecting each other's boundaries. Ok, it was working nice, ups and downs but nothing so serious.

 

The thing is I was about to move in to his house next month. Everything was settled, plane tickets bought, plans made, everything! We sometimes have arguments but it works fine in the end, as we love and care about each other.

 

I'm having a hard time currently because I stopped smoking 20 days ago. I'm dealing well with it, without medicines, but I feel like exploding at the smallest spark. I asked him for comprehension, and patience. He is a very very anxious person and was driving me nuts with the trip, even with the tickets being bought already. I was also truly anxious with the new life, being away from my family, dog and culture, is always a hard thing to do.

 

Today I wasn't feeling well, after having an argument with a relative, and asked him to be a little alone, as I wasn't in the mood to skype so much. I went out to shop, warned him as always I was going to do this, to raise my moods, and he left to his brothers home to drink... Without letting me know as always. He had many problems with drinking before and I don't like when he does this. Came home drunk and started to discuss the relationship when everything I asked him was to please respect I wasn't in the mood, that our relationship was fine and I just needed a time for myself once!... In the end he left this Saturday night to drink, drank all night and didn't answer my phone calls. I cancelled the trip so angry I became and asked for a refund. I didn't deserve this at all. I asked him nothing but to give me a quiet and calm day to please calm down :( anyways now I feel like shyyt because I wanted to go so bad! But not this way :( why people are so selfish :(

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Not seeing him was the best decision you could make. Now make the second best choice. Break up with him.

 

Read your other thread, and remember why it was a bad decision to go on with him.

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