Sunny_sunshine Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 I met the perfect guy last June. Instantly knew he was meant to be in my life. I also knew that we were opposites in every single way but I thought that's what made us, "us". We started fighting and it just went down hill from there. I love him with all my heart but he says we just don't work. A huge part of me agrees but he's been such a massive part of my life I feel this feeling of sickness no matter what I do. I feel like I can't be without him. Every moment of the day I think about him and I can't stop. It's been one day NC and I want to text him so bad. I know that's disastrous but I can't help it. I don't have many friends so the option to get away is hard. I just feel lost.
lauren4002 Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 You have all the support you need on here! Im on day three no contact and yet we have been broken up just under a month.I have good and bad days! At the end of the day you have to look after number one, which is yourself. Here if you need to rant xx
Author Sunny_sunshine Posted February 20, 2014 Author Posted February 20, 2014 Some people are telling me how it's gonna take time. I just want to be over it quickly. For the longest time I had someone to text all the time. Now I'm so lonely.
lvroflife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 What were the fights about? Did you guys try and get to the core of the arguments?
Author Sunny_sunshine Posted February 20, 2014 Author Posted February 20, 2014 About everything and anything. All the time. And I could see them talking a toll on him. I have bipolar disorder and I feel that was 99% of the problem.
lvroflife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 Did he know you had Bipolar? Did you two ever sit down to learn about how to cope and date someone with Bipolar?
Author Sunny_sunshine Posted February 20, 2014 Author Posted February 20, 2014 Oh yea he knew. And he did everything in his power to help me but I honestly know it was me 100%. On Monday I made a stupid decision to give him space and let him decide what he wanted bcz he deserved that but instead of giving that time I pushed and pushed like always and he finally was just done.
Author Sunny_sunshine Posted February 21, 2014 Author Posted February 21, 2014 With the "I'll give you some time to think" and then five minutes later saying "do you want to be with me or not" I asked a question I didn't want the answer to bcz I knew it was already coming
lvroflife Posted February 21, 2014 Posted February 21, 2014 OK! Do not panic, try and stay calm! First thing is give him space, let everything cool down! Even you need to cool down. And focus on you, it is going to be hard, but that is what we are here for to chat and help each other through this! Try and stay as positive as you can. And do not contact him... Let him breath and if he comes back he does...but if he doesn't that is ok too, because you will heal!! 1
Caliguy30 Posted February 21, 2014 Posted February 21, 2014 Some people are telling me how it's gonna take time. I just want to be over it quickly. For the longest time I had someone to text all the time. Now I'm so lonely. Don't we all haha. I'm exactly the same way. Day 4 and I'm struggling every day, but the best thing for me to think about is that I'm proving to myself that I don't need this person. I'm waiting for the day where I can wake up in the morning and not think about her or lose track of how many days of NC it has been.
Author Sunny_sunshine Posted February 21, 2014 Author Posted February 21, 2014 I idiotically texted him and then went on a site we both use and saw something that made my heart drop. Just personal things. His response showed that he respected me enough not to use me but I took an oath to just avoid everything for a while. Never go searching bcz you'll never like what you find
Nicki73562 Posted February 21, 2014 Posted February 21, 2014 Hi there welcome to the group. I am right there with you on day 2 of NC and it is hard. I sometimes slip and look around on FB but I know I shouldn't cause you are right there is nothing good that you will find and it is better to move on though it is hard. I am here if you want to talk
Nicki73562 Posted February 21, 2014 Posted February 21, 2014 you sounds a lot like me and I have something similar to Bipolar and possibly Bipolar and I am disabled. I pushed and pushed as well and he was already done with us but I couldn't handle it. I had moods pretty bad and blame myself for our break up.
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