Should I Ask Him If He Wants To Try Again Or Should I Move On?......

[munchermuncher]

I'm 18, a high school senior. He's 17, also a senior. I'm not sure what college he is (or i am) going to. Anyways. So it's been a month since my ex and I broke up (he ended it but i initiated it i guess). This month has felt like forever, and I'm really trying to get over him. But it's so hard. At the most the longest I've went without crying was only 3 days. I think my eyes are going to be permanently puffy from crying this much.

 

He was the first person I liked THIS much (I liked a lot of guys and I got over them quick but I never liked any guy this much...). I honestly think i loved him. He was my first serious relationship... He's the one I lost my virginity to. We were together 5 months. We had a lot of sexual relations and that's the main reason why we broke up( along with not seeing each other or talking that much). It sucks because I learned all my mistakes about the relationship but it's too late... We also didn't talk much after the first time we had sex... I just wish that didn't happen.

 

Anyways. A week after the breakup I went out with some friends and posted a picture of my friends and I (and one of my friends was a guy) on a snapchat story. Literally a day after he texted me and snapchatted me.. that took me by surprise and i honestly wasn't ready to talk to him yet. (Since then he constantly checks every snapchat story i put up even if its over 5 minutes long.)So i called him the next day and we talked about the problems of the relationship. After that we didn't talk for about 2-3 weeks until i called him telling him that i missed him and more about the problems of the relationship but it was late at night and he was obviously too tired to say much.

 

What i'm trying to say is that... well i miss him a lot. I've deleted everything that reminds me of him (number, oovoo, xbox, instagram, snapchat, songs, perfumes, clothes, i even rearranged my whole room). Like i think of everything that i could of done and things i shouldn't have done... i hear songs about him... i smell his scent... i dream about him all the time... I just feel like it could have been so much more... I think about all the good times we had before the sexual stuff happened... I just feel so empty without him and I just can't shake this feeling...Should i ask him if he wants to try again? I'm really nervous to hear his reaction but i feel like i need to know so i can know whether or not i should move on. (My mom and friends say that i SHOULD move on because college is in a few months and i will meet more guys there but... i don't want them...).

Edited February 20, 2014 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
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