lvroflife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 This is painful! I started to write a text to my ex! I miss her so much! Before I hit send I came on here. I was asleep and then got a powerful rush of energy during my sleep which woke me up and prompted me to write a letter to her! I started writing and then calmed down! Never hit send, but it is a really good letter and I do want to send it!! Just had to share!!
changedlife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 I know exactly how you feel. I had the same exact experience tonight. I was asleep and woke up from a pain in my chest and so many feelings on my mind about what I wanted to say to her. Be strong. I hope we can do this. We are in it together.
Author lvroflife Posted February 20, 2014 Author Posted February 20, 2014 Thank you! And thank God for this Forum! I know her, and know that she is hurting too. I know what I am about to say may make sound naive, but she stated to me she did not want to do this, she didn't want to break up. I know part of it, is her being overwhelmed with her move and job promotion. I sometimes feel she wants me to reach out, but I know that it is all in my head. This letter stated a lot of my feelings. I did not treat her wrong or bad, she just was unsure of our furture goals. An d questioned if I will resent her or not later in life... This forum is about honesty, well honestly I want her back, and I think daily how can I et her back... But I know it takes two to work it out!! She knows the door of communication is still open...
David87 Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 Good thing you didn't hit the send button and about that letter share it here instead, don't send it to your ex, she doesn't need to know that you are miserable without her. 1
changedlife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 Thank you! And thank God for this Forum! I know her, and know that she is hurting too. I know what I am about to say may make sound naive, but she stated to me she did not want to do this, she didn't want to break up. I know part of it, is her being overwhelmed with her move and job promotion. I sometimes feel she wants me to reach out, but I know that it is all in my head. This letter stated a lot of my feelings. I did not treat her wrong or bad, she just was unsure of our furture goals. An d questioned if I will resent her or not later in life... This forum is about honesty, well honestly I want her back, and I think daily how can I et her back... But I know it takes two to work it out!! She knows the door of communication is still open... Yeah... I can feel your pain. Literally. It's been just a little over a month for the breakup with me and just a few days since she stopped talking to me completely. She knows how I feel.. She knows how much I want it. I've told her over and over, and cried over and over. I can't change the past. I can't change her heart. I can't make her feel my love and devotion. It just sucks. Shes hurting due to what I did......and I wish I could take away that pain so badly.........but all she wants is me out of her life.
Author lvroflife Posted February 20, 2014 Author Posted February 20, 2014 She will forgive you. She will heal and so will you. Keeep working on you and taking it day by day.
changedlife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 She will forgive you. She will heal and so will you. Keeep working on you and taking it day by day. Thanks buddy for the words of encouragement. I know she will be able to truly forgive me one day and possibly be friends. And her forgiveness will mean a lot to me. But I want more than that. I want that love back that we once had. I've seen the success stories of how this can actually bring people closer together and I want that badly to be us, and she did too at one point. Right now she just wants me out of her life. It's hard.. This is hard for all of us. I'm here for you.
Author lvroflife Posted February 20, 2014 Author Posted February 20, 2014 Thank you! I appreciate the support! And although right now she wants you out of her life, anything is possible. I hope for you that it works out the way you want and you two have a beautiful life together! I hate fighting the urges to do what my heart tells me! But it has only been two weeks since the break up, and I know she is hurt and upset... I want to reach out so bad and fix this, but she ended it not me and although she didn't say the words "Iwant you out of my life" she still said it... and it hurts even more because when she was breaking up with she couldn't even say the words and she kept stuttering and pausing... And I asked her do you want to do this, really? I just remember her saying I don't know, I don't want too but..... I want her back
changedlife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 Thank you! I appreciate the support! And although right now she wants you out of her life, anything is possible. I hope for you that it works out the way you want and you two have a beautiful life together! I hate fighting the urges to do what my heart tells me! But it has only been two weeks since the break up, and I know she is hurt and upset... I want to reach out so bad and fix this, but she ended it not me and although she didn't say the words "Iwant you out of my life" she still said it... and it hurts even more because when she was breaking up with she couldn't even say the words and she kept stuttering and pausing... And I asked her do you want to do this, really? I just remember her saying I don't know, I don't want too but..... I want her back Yeah... mine told me that she loved me, kissed me on the cheek and then told me that she wanted to break up with me..because it was so hard for her. Then it was all up and down in emails and text messages for a month. A lot of anger coming out on her part and a lot of her mistrust of me. Thank you for your words of encouragement. Every second that passes by though I feel that it is more and more final. I'm right here with you in your struggle. We can do it together.
Author lvroflife Posted February 20, 2014 Author Posted February 20, 2014 We can get through and talking will help! Last night I looked at her facebook and instagram (struggling not too). She still has all our pictures up on both! She can easily delete me from both and she has in the past during one of our splits. She liked a picture that stated "on particularly rough days when I'm sure I cant possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100%, and that is pretty good." I know I need to not look and I perhaps should even delete her but it is tough!! And seeing this pic let's me know she is hurting too, but makes me want to reach out even more...
changedlife Posted February 20, 2014 Posted February 20, 2014 We can get through and talking will help! Last night I looked at her facebook and instagram (struggling not too). She still has all our pictures up on both! She can easily delete me from both and she has in the past during one of our splits. She liked a picture that stated "on particularly rough days when I'm sure I cant possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100%, and that is pretty good." I know I need to not look and I perhaps should even delete her but it is tough!! And seeing this pic let's me know she is hurting too, but makes me want to reach out even more... I can completely relate. My ex took down all pictures of me over a year ago. We then dated for a year after this and she never updated her profile to say she was in a relationship with me or put any new pictures of us up even though there were tons of them. I also knew she wouldn't like it if I put up pictures. It was hard. At the time it upset me. All of my friends would ask me why it looked like we weren't dating. But since I cheated on her and hurt her so badly it was hard for her to accept it all and forgive me. I put her through hell for 4 months and then I had the nerve to ask her about pictures on facebook... Anyway... we aren't friends on there now. She deleted my roomate too after some guy started posting a lot of stuff on her page and he told me about it. I don't think shes seeing him...if she was it would hurt but it would definitely be ok for her to do that now that shes single. I'm amazed more and more everyday about how much pain we humans can cause each other and cause ourselves. The entire thing has completely opened up my eyes. I'm hoping today goes well for you and you don't get too overwhelmed. keep strong.
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