I really need , ! Why am I so jealous ( long post)?

[ThatGuy1313]

Part 1 : To start things off , I am nineteen years of age and have been single for all of my life , which obviously means that I've never had the opportunity to share a close , intimate connection with one single girl ( and that's embarrassing , I know ). And it really sucks , but I am not the first person to have experienced such a situation ,and I probably won't be the last . Taking a look back throughout my high school career as a student , I wasn't popular but I wasn't a complete loser either . I guess you could say that I was basically a 'tweener'.Like any guy my age at the time , I was interested in a few girls-- four girls to be specific , but only three really stood out to me(one of the girls I liked briefly was a friend of my friend, who happened to be a girl, and actually at some point I had a chance to be with her but I will get to that later) --whenever I showed a thorough interest in each of the four girls my interest seemed to fluctuate a lot and my intentions with them seemed to change a lot too; for whatever the reason . Initially, I was interested in the girls that was interested in because I thought they were all girlfriend/dating material , but then I would soon realize I just wanted to hook up with them instead. Just incase so I don't give anyone the wrong impression , if you couldn't already tell(or if I didn't even make this clear!), I was pretty shy and nervous around girls and had a hard time with girls when I was in school. While I was nervous and shy , as just mentioned before , I made my best effort to not make these emotions too noticeable when I was around them . But as I've gotten older , I've been able to keep those emotions under control and manage them .

Part 2... :

 

Anyways , back to the topic : But as I was saying before I drifted off to something else...When I was interested in all of these girls my interest seemed to fluctuate a lot and my intentions with them seemed to change as well . And as all these feelings and thoughts occurred to me simultaneously , I never ended up getting far with any of the girls due to hesitation , fear of rejection , my emotions , uncertainty, outside distractions , etc. With one of the girls I became so turned off by her before I even liked her, because I got this extremely pseudo-humble-snobby vibe from her . Because of that nasty vibe I got from her , I didn't even acknowledge her existence , let alone look her in the eye .

Part 3... :

 

With the second girl I was actually good friends with her but I was interested in her friend and at the time . So, I mentioned to her that I was interested in this friend of hers and she mistakenly thought I was talking about her and was completely open to the idea of being more than friends with me. But I ended up saying said no to her, because I wasn't really into her like that. Not too long after that actually , she ended up getting into to a relationship , but said if hadn't been for that she would have hooked up with me . Having experienced all of this craziness, I do understand that I can't make a girl like me . She'll either like me or she just won't . And I'm fine with that . The only problem is I feel that I've always been overlooked by a lot girls and I feel like I'm so much better than the guys they end up being with - I guess that's just me though ! Because of this all , I have feelings of resentment towards girls now , and I am only interested in hooking up or just being friends . I literally never want to be a relationship or get married . Period . If I have to lie to a girl about wanting a relationship just so I can get laid , then I will . Fast-forward to now, with social media I have connections with all of them( Facebook , Twitter , and Instagram ) and I've been able to see that their all in relationships . And not in a creepy , stalker way either .But why is that when I look at their accounts on these various social media sites I find myself getting jealous ?! Help ! I need to get over all of these girls and move on with my life, thanks .

Edited February 19, 2014 by ThatGuy1313
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[Philosoraptor]

So you resent women due to your own lack of effort and willingness to put yourself out there? And you've resigned yourself to the thought that you will lie and manipulate women in order to get laid? Plenty of women out there that want just sex as well and you won't have to lie to them to get it.

 

Right now you're wishing you had taken the chance with the girls that liked you. But your resolve should be to man up and meet someone you like rather than being angry with someone you didn't take the chance with.

 

You may be better than a lot of guys, but they have the courage to do something about it. You can be perfect in every way but single due to your own inability and fears. Work on your self esteem and not taking any potential rejection as anything more than a solitary woman was not interested in you... and that's her choice. One girl, a hundred girls, a million girls, turning you down does not mean anything to your desirability or who you are as a person.

[AnneT1985]

I agree with pp