Mr me to Posted February 17, 2014 Posted February 17, 2014 (edited) Approaching 1 month total no contact. During that time I've managed to find myself a descent job, sign a lease on a new home, lost over a stone in weight due to attending the gym and have begun driving lessons. I've used the negative energy to propel myself forward in life. I'm spending more quality time than ever with my children and generally just being the me I ought to be... Hoping the pain and loneliness will begin to fade soon. It's really not the same accomplishing things and having no one to share them with. Moods been really low lately but pride won't let me show it. Still not used to the idea of my ex being in a relationship with someone I believed to be one of my closest friends but I have found some pride and self worth that has prevented me reacting to either if them. I feel like prisoner in this town I'm constantly looking over my shoulder incase I bump into them. Hopefully should be moving by end of week and start job mid march. Maybe things will look up then. If I could give anyone any advice it would be stay busy. Nights and mornings are the hardest as these are the times I'm alone. Hopefully I'll develop some kind of social life once I move and start work. Until then it's just a case of riding it out. Heard something from a Stephen Marley song that hit hard... "Stand in love don't fall in love". Certainly something I'll be carrying into any future relationships. Peace and dumpees stay strong !!! Edited February 17, 2014 by Mr me to 1
Gemini x Posted February 17, 2014 Posted February 17, 2014 "Stand in love don't fall in love" That's my problem, I fell way too damn hard. I'll never make that mistake again. I think falling "sooo in love" with my ex was one of our problems. We both ended up losing ourselves. We almost didn't recognize each other anymore. Things that were once no big deal suddenly became life or death. If nothing else, at least this separation will bring me back to more of my old self. 1
Author Mr me to Posted February 21, 2014 Author Posted February 21, 2014 Sorry for late reply been busy moving house ect... I'm exactly the same our relationship was so intense I lost track of me. Struggling to find the real me still, seven months down the line. Looking at it now I can see it was so unhealthy we shut the rest of the world out and created some sort of parellel universe bubble containing just the two of us. Actively isolated myself from the rest of the world for the 6 years we were together, trying to find a way back in now is a struggle.
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