rushing to get over it

[herself]

Almost 45 days since EA ended.

Almost broke NC a hundred times.

I wonder how long the addiction lasts before you start to totally detach.

And if you have any nightmare experience with breaking NC & how aweful it was I would like to hear to strengthen my resolve.

Made it past his bday & Valentine's.

I hate this stranger feeling.

Were worlds apart & i hate it.

Dying for contact sadly.

[Rollercoaster Rider]

Almost 45 days since EA ended.

Almost broke NC a hundred times.

I wonder how long the addiction lasts before you start to totally detach.

And if you have any nightmare experience with breaking NC & how aweful it was I would like to hear to strengthen my resolve.

Made it past his bday & Valentine's.

I hate this stranger feeling.

Were worlds apart & i hate it.

Dying for contact sadly.

You don't want contact..trust me you don't. 9 weeks of NC on Valentine's Day, and he came looking for me, and found me. So many emotions, and I left really feeling nothing. Called me yesterday, I didn't answer. Called me today and woke me up, talked for a little bit and he asked me to call him later. I have been sitting here for two hours and have zero desire to call him back. I am emotionally drained right now.

Honestly, I wish he never came looking. I was doing well, not great but moving ahead. Trust me, keep moving forward with the NC. It really is for the best.

[herself]

I am still amazed he followed you. Seems deep down many women (and maybe men) wish their xAp would do the same.

It just hurts to feel forgotten and disposed of. Maybe thats the withdrawal talking.

I hope you found some relief too and Im sorry that the contact caused you some greif as well. I reminded myself today what a loud noise my silence was making.

And how far I have come. Stay strong.

[RickFox]

It doesn't happen as quick as you want it to and when you think you're past it.....you're not