What would you think

[Richie Rich kda]

Hey all I'm 47 make my wife is 46 married 26 years man I was a ass back in the early years I cheated drank rode Harley's I was and really still am that bad boy woman flirt a lot early on she was wild sexually then the first kid came she got extra weight I busted her ass I told her i cheated she kept me our sex was always fun.we had a foursome after that with close friends it was wild watching my wife start I did his then watched all of them I was mad later we tried my wife me and him awesome , later it broke up his wife ran out jealous we'll we went home and pissed my wife did more when they knocked I went over as my wife slept , it after a few years built a lot of trust and she ever saw that In me I still fight with this now sex is weird lately well for some year talk of a black guy got her really wet it bothered me as we almost did it before but I stopped it and now same thing she won't admit it's her wildest desire it pisses me off I told her all mine I had sex last nite drunk pretended Friday we were gonna do it and she better fess up if she did it before she said I only sucked it and it was a long time ago well then she made me feel unwanted after hearing that and feeling it ,she today said she swears she never said that and during sex today fought during sex that she doesn't like that am a wrong I say she is hiding something look I love her our sex seems crazy but it's a lot of talk only but to me she is saying something I don't know is being hidden I even told her I will do it so she can prove it maybe it's wrong but I hate secrets at this stage I would be fine one time it's great if you trust but why does she worry if I'm ok I am not gay you know it's killing me it's killing us help !!