Blizeow Posted February 7, 2014 Posted February 7, 2014 BU was 2 months ago; NC 27 days. The BU has been extremely difficult for me, and I feel worn down and exhausted. Tonight, will be the first night going out since the BU. I decided that I do not have the desire to ever date again (that ship has sailed) But, I wanted to try and meet new people and have a different group of friends (all my friends are married with children- I need some friends like myself). I am nervous for tonight- I feel insecure and not as pretty as I used to feel. I'm nervous to be around new people. And I'm scared that I'll be thinking about HIM the whole time... Any advice?
jphcbpa Posted February 7, 2014 Posted February 7, 2014 say a prayer, take some deep breaths, try to live in the present moment, take it all in around you and create new memories. it is okay and natural to feel the way you do. do not beat yourself up. take it one day at a time. this is part of the process. trust the process. try to smile even if you do not feel like it. laughter is a great thing. just be yourself. 1
Author Blizeow Posted February 7, 2014 Author Posted February 7, 2014 say a prayer, take some deep breaths, try to live in the present moment, take it all in around you and create new memories. it is okay and natural to feel the way you do. do not beat yourself up. take it one day at a time. this is part of the process. trust the process. try to smile even if you do not feel like it. laughter is a great thing. just be yourself. I'm so anxious and nervous, that your kind words made me cry.... I'm so emotional these days! I feel like I haven't smiled in ages- hopefully, I can smile tonight.
somecamel Posted February 7, 2014 Posted February 7, 2014 Where you off to? It's normal to have some butterfly's in your tummy when your putting yourself out there:) 1
Author Blizeow Posted February 8, 2014 Author Posted February 8, 2014 Thank you everyone! I went out to a club and some bars- not really my scene, but when you live in a major city, that's what people do I guess. When I was driving there I passed where he lives, and I wanted to so very badly show up at his door and cry... But obviously I didn't. 28 days of NC and wasn't going to end that by a "crazy" moment. But, I felt really sad inside. Being out made me realize how much I really did love him- no inkling of me was interested in meeting anyone (not to mention I felt like I was so much older than the majority of the crowd). I was proud of myself for going, slapped a smile on my face, "faked it 'till I maked it," and at least pulled myself out of bed. 1
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