rosedl Posted February 7, 2014 Posted February 7, 2014 We actually haven't really been together since the first week in November, but I naively played into the 'taking space' spiel which soon turned into him questioning the entire relationship. Everything fell apart in my life, all at once. I came down with the worse flu I have had in years, bed ridden for three weeks straight. I lost my drivers license for sixty days for paying a speeding ticket late and it snowballed. And, we spoke for the last time three weeks ago after kind of a sputtered ending. So, three weeks zero contact at all and I was doing much better with it for the first two weeks. I am not going to contact him (I am sure of this, I don't want to subject myself to any more of his rejection and condescending b.s.). I think what is happening is that when we were in the midst of the breakup, he was being such a jerk that it was easy to forget about all the good stuff, but now I am missing him and all I really feel is how much I loved him and the other stuff kind of fades away. I just hope this passes soon. I know I can't move towards him, I just wish I wouldn't be thinking of him again. The two weeks before this was nice without feeling this longing.
k10k Posted February 7, 2014 Posted February 7, 2014 Just wanted to say that I enjoy reading your posts rosedl, I find them insightful and I can relate quite a bit! Sorry to hear that everything fell apart all at once, funny how life works like that isn't it? At least you know that you are over your "rock bottom" and that things can only improve from here. Anyways hang in there. It's totally normal that you'll start to miss him. It's that old head vs heart scenario. The head knows that they just weren't good for us and it's probably best that it's over, but then we have the heart that misses them because we genuinely liked and loved them as people regardless. We've got to accept and come to grips with both aspects I guess. Congrats on your 3 weeks
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