Dancer5 Posted February 5, 2014 Posted February 5, 2014 Just occasionally I hate the feeling of rejection. Me n my ex split up in April after dating over a year. I have no feelings for him what so ever and I see how wrong he was for me. I'm no longer looking at him through rose colored glasses and I see past my emotions. I'm so thankful we did end. He payed attention to others and video games were more important. I tried more in the relationship and I could've ended it any time but I didn't. So I got hurt in the end. I would've done anything for him but according to him I blew it..He said at first it was because of him he didn't have friends (we saw each other like twice a week and barely talked). Then he said he wasn't ready for a relationship and it could be until college when he's ready. He then dated my "friend" a few months later. I suspected she liked him (they broke up a month later over her marriage views). So he lied at our break up. I hate the feeling of not being worth it to someone tho. He thought things of me (clingy, high maintenance) and I just hate how someone thinks that of me. I know I shouldn't care but it makes me feel bad sometimes. Even it was true, I've changed a lot since then. I wish he saw that even tho I don't want to ever date him again. People told me I did nothing wrong and that he was just immature (he was 17 and I'm 18). I want someone to value all the sides of me n stuff. I'm a people pleaser tho. I don't want to drive myself nuts trying to prove to someone I was worth it. :/ Every once in awhile that thought just bugs me. It's not making me cry or ruining my life tho lol. I'm focused on God, myself, trying to go to college, and I'm really happy with life right now. I've grown a lot this past year being single n I'm proud of it. Him and his family (pastor of my church btw) don't talk to me anymore. How can I not let his opinions of me get to me? His sis (ex friend) runs her mouth about me sometimes. People say it's jealousy idk..
d0nnivain Posted February 5, 2014 Posted February 5, 2014 Your self worth shouldn't come from another person, certainly not a 17 year old boy. If you are a people pleaser, try doing all the things you'd do for others for yourself. How would you cheer up a friend who was feeling the way you are? What would you say to her? Apply that love & care to yourself. 1
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