Kenescue Posted February 5, 2014 Posted February 5, 2014 Hiii i'm 18 lol I never did the before nor had this kinda of problem. So i thought why not get a outsiders thoughts... any who. Let's start off lol i'm real and blunt so here it goes. I don't have a mom i was born and raised by my dad my mother walked out me and my twin brother when we were babies because of drugs.. So that was a really hard impact on me cause of me not having the mother and daughter experience /: But hey God did it that way this way to make me stronger lol so now almost a year ago in April of 2013 my boyfriend and I met. off to a bad start we instantly fell in love but before him i was stupid and hung out with the wrong crowed and end up having sex with this guy i used to have a huge crush on and he got me pregnant. Doing the hardest decision of my life i got an abortion bc (no stable home, car, ect) I'm not going to bring a baby into this world and not be able to give it everything. I know I laid down and make my mistake i regret it EVERYDAY. I have suicidal thoughts cause it but i'd never do it cause i love God so much and he wouldn't want me to die cause he died to give me the life i have so why would i be so selfish and do that to the people i love... anyways.... But ever since that cause my boyfriend thought it was his and the timing of the pregnancy wasn't right he was so mad and started mentally abusing me. at first i thought it was cause he was hurt and but no it got worst and worst... he grab's me, hits me, calls me names, tells me to kill myself and that i'm not worth to anyone and that i'm ''blown out'' i just don't know why god would do this to me ... ugh Like to the point idk what to do i'm so in love with him my family don't like him and his some what family don't like me. But he gets me so much like i have horrible anxiety,PTSD, agoraphobia, and depression cause my grandma died right in front of me. I just want to help him he was abused as a child so idk is that why hes so mad? Do i walk away? We have pets together now and live together the first please positive. Please someone help:eek:
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