Kalee35 Posted February 4, 2014 Posted February 4, 2014 (edited) Perhaps he was waiting for me intentionally on my walk. I think he was but it matters not. I said hi and he looked so sad just sitting there looking like he had no sleep whatsoever in days. For all of you not familiar with my story I broke things off a month ago after a 5 month long affair. I realized I did not love him and things would never work. I asked him how he was doing and he just looked worn out and lost. I couldn't help but feel sorry for him cause that's just my heart and how it works. He started talking about so many things at once it was hard to keep up at times. He talked about being at home and what life was now like with his wife and how hard it was and how he does nothing but think of me. He said he doesn't know where his head is at but his heart is not in his marriage and he can't force it to be there. I told him I understood and mentioned that he needed to try. He said things would never be the same at home and he thought things probably weren't going to work out. I sat listening most of the time not knowing what to say really except that I understood. Wow, to see the pain these guys are in was a real eye opener. They understand the devastation they've created and I think the person suffering the worst besides the wife is the man himself. It was extremely sad for me to see someone in obvious turmoil like that and I couldn't do a thing about it. That's not to take away from the pain the other woman is going through. I know there is hurt on that end too but from what I could tell the man is torn between two worlds and living in agony from his choices and the people he has hurt along the way including himself. Edited February 4, 2014 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
herself Posted February 6, 2014 Posted February 6, 2014 That does seem very sad. Clearly he was waiting for you, yes.
Author Kalee35 Posted February 7, 2014 Author Posted February 7, 2014 It was very sad. I still feel bad thinking about it now.
whichwayisup Posted February 7, 2014 Posted February 7, 2014 It was very sad. I still feel bad thinking about it now. But don't change your mind. I realized I did not love him and things would never work. You can sad for hurting him but you are not in love with him and things would never work out, as you said above. DO NOT allow his puppy dog eyes and sadness make you feel guilty or bad. This is your life. He is a grown man and he isn't going to die of pain because a less 6 month affair ended. 1
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