Anna2014 Posted February 3, 2014 Posted February 3, 2014 He dropped the bomb two days ago, telling me that he had decided to leave the country so couldn't promise me anything if he meant to be leave in a few months. He said that because he was not happy at work and felt stuck so the best option (?) for him was to explore jobs opportunities elsewhere. We are both expats in our 30s. Moving around is no news but I was in shock because I didn't expect that he could give up on us so easily. I did the damage control, agreed with his decision and wished him luck. It was the best I could do. I couldn't give him a new job, or a new boss or a life he always desired. He had to work on his own. I honestly told him that I couldn't be friend, left the restaurant and tried to hold my breath until I got home. The next morning was devastated. The weather was so good to go out but by the time I got myself ready and realised that I was no longer with someone. I burst into tears. But I don't have the courage to talk to him anymore. A week ago he said he would marry me and take me if he'd decided to move to another countries for good. The next day he drunk texted me and said he wanted to be friends only. Follow the next day he apologised for causing all these trouble it wasn't his intention to upset me. Finally he told me he would not be happy to stay here so he had to move on. I felt angry, being used and deeply disappointed. But looking at his pattern I don't think a fair fight would work. Leaving him and this relationship might have saved me from further pain. Today I was feeling alright, not my 100% but I was able to go out and enjoy a quiet evening ... until I got a text from him. He was accusing me of making him a bad guy because I declined to be friend with him. I was like ... WTF? I'd slowly gaining back my strength in these two days and now a text like this had taken me back to ground zero. I did the most stupid thing you could ever imagine. I texted back! After a lengthy argument on the text I got totally fed up and said ... 'You have done enough damage here so please just leave and to pursue your dream'. It was hurtful to hear and absorb when he told me he wanted to leave, but this time I said things that are equally hurtful. It's so not me. Now I feel even more stressed than the day I had the break up. I cannot eat. Feeling low ...
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