sickoflove11 Posted February 1, 2014 Posted February 1, 2014 I don't have anyone else to talk to about this so here goes my rant for the day… On top of everything, I just found out my nana had a massive stroke today and is not going to make it past the night. I can't be there and I'm just alone getting breadcrumbs from my ex. He'll send me snap chats about once a week or so, but they're mostly group ones so I don't reply.. I've been doing fine all week since the last time he sent me a snap chat on Sunday. Of course I have thought about him everyday but never thought about contacting him in anyway and he hadn't contacted me until todays group snap chat. And of course today I kind of replied.. A few hours later I sent one to all my contacts which was so stupid because I hate when I see that he has opened it but he hasn't replied even if there was no point in replying it still bothers me. I know he sends it to like 50 people but why include me? Why not just skip my name un check it whatever. We're in different states now, he's moved on, probably has a new girl.. Why do I miss him so much this time? Why does this feel like starting back at square 1 even though he's done this before and I was fine? (I found out about my nana after all this so it's not really relative just more stress)
strive Posted February 1, 2014 Posted February 1, 2014 I'm sorry to hear abut your nana As for the other part, the better question would be why do you allow it if it's hurting you? Why don't you just block him instead of wishing he won't include you? Be proactive about moving on. 3
Haydn Posted February 1, 2014 Posted February 1, 2014 Sorry about your granny. But its just amplified how much you miss him as a reason to feel even more down. Its not your gran that is causing you this pain. its the thought of him. He wont be there in your time of need so.........
Author sickoflove11 Posted February 2, 2014 Author Posted February 2, 2014 I'm sorry to hear abut your nana As for the other part, the better question would be why do you allow it if it's hurting you? Why don't you just block him instead of wishing he won't include you? Be proactive about moving on. I don't block him because majority of the time it doesn't get to me but for some reason today it did. And like I said this was way before I heard about my nana so it's not related at all. I'm not bothered by him not being here in my time of need because I don't need him. I know she will be better off, it is just stressful that I can't be with family. You're right about being proactive and I thought I was but I guess I missed a step. Sometimes I just really wish I had someone to talk to when things like this happen.
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