H e l p... I am freaking out

January 30, 2014

Thank you...i guess you are right..just...that secret desire to have the old/gone days back..

Yea..Needtobreathe!

It's a tough battle with yourself on that one. That's what makes breakups so crappy. When you are together, sometimes the fond times arent really thought of UNTIL something bad happens, and then they wont go away. It's rough man no matter what age.

I know it sucks and extra confusing right now. She tells you one thing, and then acts another. You feel like if you just said one thing or did one action, things would get back to the way they were? Sadly, saying nothing can be the best said thing. One day (hopefully), she will understand her feelings better and able to communicate them better. You've got a lot of time to figure these things out man and how to handle them. In a sick form of being lucky, situations like this will help you out in the long run of how to deal with things. Breakups dont get easier, but the way you handle them will be.

January 30, 2014

It's a tough battle with yourself on that one. That's what makes breakups so crappy. When you are together, sometimes the fond times arent really thought of UNTIL something bad happens, and then they wont go away. It's rough man no matter what age.

I know it sucks and extra confusing right now. She tells you one thing, and then acts another. You feel like if you just said one thing or did one action, things would get back to the way they were? Sadly, saying nothing can be the best said thing. One day (hopefully), she will understand her feelings better and able to communicate them better. You've got a lot of time to figure these things out man and how to handle them. In a sick form of being lucky, situations like this will help you out in the long run of how to deal with things. Breakups dont get easier, but the way you handle them will be.

I agree ^

She is just confused about what she wants, according to me obviously. But you need to be sure that all these actions dont lead you on. Trust me its nothing but bad. You might get hurt MIGHT be happy but prepare for the worst. She hasnt made up her mind and you need to distract yourself alot.

Tell me one thing, you said you walk together after school. Is there anyway that can be avoided?

January 30, 2014

Thank you...i guess you are right..just...that secret desire to have the old/gone days back..

Yea..Needtobreathe!

Yes! Think about how your life was before her? What did you used to do. Maybe play music? Or chill with your friends more? It can be anything. Focus on that . I promise it will be ok! Smile.

For a change here is me linking you a song :

January 30, 2014

I..juust fell apart...that nervous breakdown...can\t stop crying....it hurts so bad..so ****ing bad...soooo bad....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

January 30, 2014

I..juust fell apart...that nervous breakdown...can\t stop crying....it hurts so bad..so ****ing bad...soooo bad....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

No dont cry please...please Discover. I know the pain.... Ok let it out but dont think about her, if you do then distract yourself, plz dont be sad.

January 30, 2014

Be sad. Cry as much as you want. It is part of the healing process. Don't fight it, let it flow!!

January 30, 2014

Thank you guys...worst 45 minutes this week...thank you for being here,...god..thank you...

January 30, 2014

How are you holding up? you feeling better?

January 30, 2014

How are you holding up? you feeling better?

I think it all went in an insane workout while crying and shouting..pathetic..the first 15minutes were for me strugling to catch a breath...pff..pathetic...I don\'t feel better..but i feel like before..i mean...yea it is better i guess than an hour ago...sorry to worry you bubbles...

How are you? Feeling ok? Sleeping? Eating?

January 30, 2014

I think it all went in an insane workout while crying and shouting..pathetic..the first 15minutes were for me strugling to catch a breath...pff..pathetic...I don\'t feel better..but i feel like before..i mean...yea it is better i guess than an hour ago...sorry to worry you bubbles...

How are you? Feeling ok? Sleeping? Eating?

Yea working out helps! Its ok you dont have to feel guilty about your breakdown, we all have them! As long as you feel better

And man..too much happened..Wish I could just Pm you and tell you everything

January 30, 2014

Yea working out helps! Its ok you dont have to feel guilty about your breakdown, we all have them! As long as you feel better

And man..too much happened..Wish I could just Pm you and tell you everything

Yea..same here...but if you can/want to...go i will listen

January 30, 2014

Um okay.. then..

My health is being weird..When I walk my legs shake like a hell lot of shaking that I can barely walk and even while I am typing or anything my fingers shake. Today I was climbing staircase , they were only 7 of them and it was hell lot of difficult and I kind of fell down and I felt so tired. I feel tried walking just 2 steps. Normally I am not this low on stamina and this has been happening since 5-6 days and to add to that , I am having problems retaining things..

Then ex's mom contacts me then my mom contacts me. All in all I am not holding on ok.

January 30, 2014

Um okay.. then..

My health is being weird..When I walk my legs shake like a hell lot of shaking that I can barely walk and even while I am typing or anything my fingers shake. Today I was climbing staircase , they were only 7 of them and it was hell lot of difficult and I kind of fell down and I felt so tired. I feel tried walking just 2 steps. Normally I am not this low on stamina and this has been happening since 5-6 days and to add to that , I am having problems retaining things..

Then ex's mom contacts me then my mom contacts me. All in all I am not holding on ok.

God..bubbles...go to the hospital..NOW!!! Get a cab and go..please...holy **** bubbles...go to the hospital....and why would his mom call you?! ... If you want to vent..like a long post..anything..just say it...better...DO IT! I am here for you !

January 30, 2014

I completely agree with Confused. She doesn't know what she wants. She misses you, and likes the comfort of having you around to help ease that. But, she doesn't know if she wants to be with you.

So, this is going to be a very bold move....I still don't know how I feel about telling you this. You said the walk home was good, being with her was nice. I'm sure she realized this too. I feel like the only thing you need to do is lay down the law with her. I think it will help you move on (depending on how it turns out). Again, its a bold move, but, it will show that you have confidence and aren't afraid. Go on a walk home with her (which I wouldn't recommend, but could very well see it happening since it already happened once).

Assuming the walk home goes well, and you both are about to part ways. Grab her by the hips and pull her close and kiss her. Not some cheap 8 grade kiss, like the best damn kiss you've ever given her in your life. Yes, it sounds very "movie-esque", but...she will remember that moment - and this my friend, is what you want. You very well may get slapped for it, I don't know, but if that happens...take it like a man. That moment will sit in her mind. If she slaps you or give you some ****, follow up with something like "Then please stop ****ing with my head. Let me move on".

You must say something like this. You must show her you aren't screwing around. This is the turning point. From that point on, you go hardcore NC. If you see her in class, you ignore her. She's just another student that you don't know. She says hi, you completely ignore her. What you did is you showed her you have the confidence and the balls to kiss her like that, and, showing her what its like without you there. By doing the walks home and BS like that, you're pretty much saying, "yeah, I'm okay with being your buddy". Screw that.

You told her that you aren't ****ing around anymore (like she's doing with you - ie: screwing with your head). You gave her something to think about. Believe me, she'll think about it A LOT. She most likely will go tell her friends, which is good. Even if she says bad things about "I can't believe he did that"...what you did is got her thinking. "bad publicity is still publicity". Again, but you MUST go NC after this.

From that point on, you can't stop feeling bad about it and feeling sorry for yourself. You "sacked up". Took control and did what YOU want to do. She has you thinking about her all the time...switch the roles on her. This is where you move on. You did all you can do. You have to let this all sit. I'm not saying she'll come back, but, what you did is you got her thinking about you. You turned the tables on her. Right now she's the one living life as a single person, with you thinking about her all the time. Do the same to her. Pick yourself back up and cut her out of your life.

It is at that very moment (the kiss) where you say, **** this, I'm done being a doormat and I'm done sulking over this girl. Show her you have truly moved on. That is your best chance at getting back with her. You cannot tell her how well you are doing (that would be breaking NC). You can't contact her friends, nothing. She will notice how well you're doing by NOT doing those things.

I may get criticized for what I said, but hey, whatever. I think this is what you need to do. She obviously still cares about you, so turn the tables and MAKE her think about you the way she made you think about her. You have to pick yourself up. Don't even acknowledge her glances and looks at you in class.

January 30, 2014

Ill make a long post. Hold On I jsut got to know something..I am on the verge of breakdown.

January 30, 2014

Um okay.. then..

My health is being weird..When I walk my legs shake like a hell lot of shaking that I can barely walk and even while I am typing or anything my fingers shake. Today I was climbing staircase , they were only 7 of them and it was hell lot of difficult and I kind of fell down and I felt so tired. I feel tried walking just 2 steps. Normally I am not this low on stamina and this has been happening since 5-6 days and to add to that , I am having problems retaining things..

Then ex's mom contacts me then my mom contacts me. All in all I am not holding on ok.

get some OJ and drink that. Get that vitamin C in you (help from getting sick) and the sugar to help your blood sugar levels....also a banana - potassium. Sounds like you have a seriously low blood sugar from not eating.

January 30, 2014

God..bubbles...go to the hospital..NOW!!! Get a cab and go..please...holy **** bubbles...go to the hospital....and why would his mom call you?! ... If you want to vent..like a long post..anything..just say it...better...DO IT! I am here for you !

made another thread..

January 30, 2014

I completely agree with Confused. She doesn't know what she wants. She misses you, and likes the comfort of having you around to help ease that. But, she doesn't know if she wants to be with you.

So, this is going to be a very bold move....I still don't know how I feel about telling you this. You said the walk home was good, being with her was nice. I'm sure she realized this too. I feel like the only thing you need to do is lay down the law with her. I think it will help you move on (depending on how it turns out). Again, its a bold move, but, it will show that you have confidence and aren't afraid. Go on a walk home with her (which I wouldn't recommend, but could very well see it happening since it already happened once).

Assuming the walk home goes well, and you both are about to part ways. Grab her by the hips and pull her close and kiss her. Not some cheap 8 grade kiss, like the best damn kiss you've ever given her in your life. Yes, it sounds very "movie-esque", but...she will remember that moment - and this my friend, is what you want. You very well may get slapped for it, I don't know, but if that happens...take it like a man. That moment will sit in her mind. If she slaps you or give you some ****, follow up with something like "Then please stop ****ing with my head. Let me move on".

You must say something like this. You must show her you aren't screwing around. This is the turning point. From that point on, you go hardcore NC. If you see her in class, you ignore her. She's just another student that you don't know. She says hi, you completely ignore her. What you did is you showed her you have the confidence and the balls to kiss her like that, and, showing her what its like without you there. By doing the walks home and BS like that, you're pretty much saying, "yeah, I'm okay with being your buddy". Screw that.

You told her that you aren't ****ing around anymore (like she's doing with you - ie: screwing with your head). You gave her something to think about. Believe me, she'll think about it A LOT. She most likely will go tell her friends, which is good. Even if she says bad things about "I can't believe he did that"...what you did is got her thinking. "bad publicity is still publicity". Again, but you MUST go NC after this.

From that point on, you can't stop feeling bad about it and feeling sorry for yourself. You "sacked up". Took control and did what YOU want to do. She has you thinking about her all the time...switch the roles on her. This is where you move on. You did all you can do. You have to let this all sit. I'm not saying she'll come back, but, what you did is you got her thinking about you. You turned the tables on her. Right now she's the one living life as a single person, with you thinking about her all the time. Do the same to her. Pick yourself back up and cut her out of your life.

It is at that very moment (the kiss) where you say, **** this, I'm done being a doormat and I'm done sulking over this girl. Show her you have truly moved on. That is your best chance at getting back with her. You cannot tell her how well you are doing (that would be breaking NC). You can't contact her friends, nothing. She will notice how well you're doing by NOT doing those things.

I may get criticized for what I said, but hey, whatever. I think this is what you need to do. She obviously still cares about you, so turn the tables and MAKE her think about you the way she made you think about her. You have to pick yourself up. Don't even acknowledge her glances and looks at you in class.

I can do all that without the kiss...my god FU CK THAT...if i get her back i just...don't want that old thing back you know...i don't need her to feel bad or think about me...i will just move on..that's it...and will try..but the kiss...my god...won't it be stupid if we get back together...i mean..it has already gone...it feels like i am going on a suicidal run if i do this...SCARED ;x

January 30, 2014

I can do all that without the kiss...my god FU CK THAT...if i get her back i just...don't want that old thing back you know...i don't need her to feel bad or think about me...i will just move on..that's it...and will try..but the kiss...my god...won't it be stupid if we get back together...i mean..it has already gone...it feels like i am going on a suicidal run if i do this...SCARED ;x

Then do it man. It all starts with a step. My suggestion was a bold one and to get her to think about you, while you close the door and move on with your healing. More of a, this is the last thing I'm going to do, then cut her out and show her what its like with you not there. But you DO need her to think about you. Because right now, she's got you thinking about her all the time. Switch roles by doing this. If she doesn't come back, know you had the balls to do that to help you move on. If she does, then its all on your terms. You have to show her that you're not screwing around with this - and right now, you're showing her youre still stuck in the past. Do this to not only move forward, keep the past in the past, but also to solidify in her mind, I'm gone (by saying "stop ****ing with me" part), while, getting her to think about you and what it will be like without you there (when you go strict NC).

Also, its not already gone....because you keep yourself in the past. You keep thinking about the past and everything (which is normal). But you keep being there for her - which you can't do. She's (and you) making it easier on herself by doing those walks home. You need to do something to show her how this is going to be.

January 31, 2014

Then do it man. It all starts with a step. My suggestion was a bold one and to get her to think about you, while you close the door and move on with your healing. More of a, this is the last thing I'm going to do, then cut her out and show her what its like with you not there. But you DO need her to think about you. Because right now, she's got you thinking about her all the time. Switch roles by doing this. If she doesn't come back, know you had the balls to do that to help you move on. If she does, then its all on your terms. You have to show her that you're not screwing around with this - and right now, you're showing her youre still stuck in the past. Do this to not only move forward, keep the past in the past, but also to solidify in her mind, I'm gone (by saying "stop ****ing with me" part), while, getting her to think about you and what it will be like without you there (when you go strict NC).

Also, its not already gone....because you keep yourself in the past. You keep thinking about the past and everything (which is normal). But you keep being there for her - which you can't do. She's (and you) making it easier on herself by doing those walks home. You need to do something to show her how this is going to be.

I agree with unknown^

Do it for yourself. Atleast you will know what does she want? is it someething like her fu*king up with ur head or something she really wants. Its a bold move but like unknown has said go hardcore NC after that ! let us know what happened.

January 31, 2014

I agree with unknown^

Do it for yourself. Atleast you will know what does she want? is it someething like her fu*king up with ur head or something she really wants. Its a bold move but like unknown has said go hardcore NC after that ! let us know what happened.

Well..I don't know..another day passed..i will not see her for the next 4 days if it depends on me( meaning not on chance) but i feel strange...she acts more or less as she wants to say something..she is staring at me...waiting for me...looking at me during my practise...i am annoyed that even when she talks i heard about her parties...never learned to deal with the way i feel inside when i hear this...annoying prick...

One more thing: She told one of our mutual friends..that "I was angry at her" and she is wondering whether she should tell me that she wants to be with me..WHAT THE FU CK,WOMEN?! And...she could say sorry but it wasn't that simple...GOD>...blah....i feel like a dumper..the hell..

Edited January 31, 2014 by Discover

January 31, 2014

Well..I don't know..another day passed..i will not see her for the next 4 days if it depends on me( meaning not on chance) but i feel strange...she acts more or less as she wants to say something..she is staring at me...waiting for me...looking at me during my practise...i am annoyed that even when she talks i heard about her parties...never learned to deal with the way i feel inside when i hear this...annoying prick...

One more thing: She told one of our mutual friends..that "I was angry at her" and she is wondering whether she should tell me that she wants to be with me..WHAT THE FU CK,WOMEN?! And...she could say sorry but it wasn't that simple...GOD>...blah....i feel like a dumper..the hell..

omfg.. what the ****? She is messing with ur brain..confront her! and then go NC , even ask mutual friends not to talk about her. God. discover how are u?

January 31, 2014

omfg.. what the ****? She is messing with ur brain..confront her! and then go NC , even ask mutual friends not to talk about her. God. discover how are u?

I can't stop thinking about her...that's how i am...but it is kind of lame...i just love her..but i am so annoyed by her..it is strange...i am not the type who cares about mind games..not impressed..kind of bored by them and i am actually amuzed by the situation...she still doesn't know whether she wants to be with me...and keeps me close and stares at me with her big beautiful eyes...always finding something to talk about..my my...I am thinking of getting out of town for 2 days with my friends...

January 31, 2014

Well..I don't know..another day passed..i will not see her for the next 4 days if it depends on me( meaning not on chance) but i feel strange...she acts more or less as she wants to say something..she is staring at me...waiting for me...looking at me during my practise/lessons..asking me to grab a lunch together...

i am annoyed that even now when she talks i heard about her parties...never learned to deal with the way i feel inside when i hear this...annoying prick...

One more thing: She told one of our mutual friends..that "I was angry at her" and she is wondering whether she should tell me that she wants to be with me..WHAT THE FU CK,WOMEN?! And...she could say sorry but it wasn't that simple...GOD>...blah....i feel like a dumper..the hell..

Now, i can't stop thinking about her..and being annoyed at her mind game or whatever it is...

January 31, 2014

Well..I don't know..another day passed..i will not see her for the next 4 days if it depends on me( meaning not on chance) but i feel strange...she acts more or less as she wants to say something..she is staring at me...waiting for me...looking at me during my practise/lessons..asking me to grab a lunch together...
i am annoyed that even now when she talks i heard about her parties...never learned to deal with the way i feel inside when i hear this...annoying prick...

One more thing: She told one of our mutual friends..that "I was angry at her" and she is wondering whether she should tell me that she wants to be with me..WHAT THE FU CK,WOMEN?! And...she could say sorry but it wasn't that simple...GOD>...blah....i feel like a dumper..the hell..

Now, i can't stop thinking about her..and being annoyed at her mind game or whatever it is...

Ok my personal judgment..Thats what I think

I think she just needs someone to vent out all the feelings. And you are her safe harbor. She is leading you on to believe that she likes you and when you talk to her its all about her parties, right? She didnt say anything to you did she? NO. Why? because she doesnt want it. I know its harsh..I am sorry but buddy she is playing with your emotions. Confront her once and all. Ask her if she wants to be with you or not. Just a yes or no. Tell her you need to move on. She has to answer.

Dont keep hurting yourself this way

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