Where to begin

[Lillygoose]

I'm looking for a little help here....

 

I had a long term relationship of five years which ended in December 2012. Look on my previous posts it's all there! It was a very messy breakup where's got the worse half.

 

 

Let with nothing and started a new life 150 miles awa from him. Anyway it left me devastated to the point I cried for 90 days non stop...

 

Lost my partner my car my job and my house all in one week.

 

 

So fast forward to June 2013 I started talking to someone I knew about five years back.

 

And before you know it, we where in a relationship! I was over the moon and so in love with the guy!!! He lives bang on in the middle of London I live two hours out.

 

But we trying to make it work.

 

 

 

Now I believe this is partly my fault, due to the fact I was s hurt last time I really put my defences up. I told him upfront what happened with nick so I didn't get hurt.

 

Few times I have almost chickened out of our relationship scared of getting too serious. And I guess I didn't count off the effect it would have on him. It's hard our families don't like each other and my friends don't like him nd his friends don't Like me. He is very short tempered and very stubborn.

 

 

So as usuallllll Facebook happens and he adds an old fling! Which he always sad to me was the one tha got away. Now what am I to think? I questioned it and he broke us off.

 

 

Said he can't cope with me being the way I am. I'm so childish etc etc ....he has deleted me and blocked me off everything.

 

 

I can't help feel I pushed him. I just need an outsiders opinion. Why do I get terrible heart ache??? It's horrible, I can't stop crying. Feel like I've lost someone I needed.

 

 

Thought?

 

X

[ShreyaD]

I can understand where you are coming from. It depends on how you questioned him. Did u accuse him of anything or just asked him? If u asked him then his reaction was completely uncalled for. An accusation on the other hand could have left him feeling like u don't trust him

[Lillygoose]

I just said I've noticed you added so and so....

 

I don't know want to do, he is saying just be friends.

 

 

I love him, and I don't know whether I go nc, or just wait or just generally be hisf friend but If I see him an another girl that would tear me up xx

[guest572]

It doesn't sound like you have pushed him, just by bringing up the topic that he has added 'the one that got away' to his social media. That is really upsetting and I would have done the same as you.