H245 Posted January 27, 2014 Posted January 27, 2014 It's been almost a month since BU and 4 days NC. I admit the last few days have been easier than not, but I also got sick with the flu yesterday which made me think of her more and more. Part of me wants to break NC, but at the same time I know it won't get me anywhere. I really wish she would apologize for what she did. I apologized for my actions, why couldn't she? I signed up for weekly trivia through meetup.com but my ex did as well as well along with next weeks trivia. I don't know if I should go for the meetup, or meet my one friend that is going there and just sit at the bar with him. I really hate that I have to avoid seeing people I know because of her. I feel like she is doing it on purpose to make me feel uncomfortable, but I don't want to give her the satisfaction. I saw a mutual friend post of a picture of the 2 of them out last week and my ex doesn't look like she's doing too good in the picture. Smiling, but almost a forced smile. It made me feel slightly better about myself since I've been working out and lost 7 pounds in the last 2 weeks. But I also feel bad that I feel good from her not doing well. Is this normal?
ikilledacockroach Posted January 27, 2014 Posted January 27, 2014 (edited) Well I don't really know if it's normal but if it's any consolation I always feel better when I see that my ex isn't doing too well! Although at times I also find myself feeling guilty for being happy at their unhappiness but it just feels like oh well now you get to experience a little of what I was feeling...I have a feeling I'm coming across as very bitter lol! Can't help it! Edited January 27, 2014 by ikilledacockroach
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