To all who were left with the "I don't feel the same anymore" - my experience

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It is a long post,if you don't want to read don't...just needed a vent -.-

Listen while you read..eases your mind..

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It is hard..i am not even the person to talk about it but i will share with you just because i know it is nice to see that you are not the only one and you have someone next to you (sort of). I was left by my girlfriend of 2years,two weeks after our anniversery,she was my first love, my first intimate partner and the first girl who actually made me go into a complete feeling inside of my heart. Well, i guess she has been feeling like this for a long time, now when i think about it there were times i just felt she wasn't happy like she used to be.Now i can't say if i am perfect or not..even our breaking up was romantic cause i wanted to remember it and it hurts...

 

She asked for time, i gave her two weeks, knowing that i am ready to fight for her, but soon realized with my heart that those weeks are just a way for us to separate from each other in a less painful and dramatic way..Two days ago i made her actually say it cause i didn't want it so i wanted to know that i helped her atleast become a bit stronger as a character and i left her with a long kiss..

 

Yesterday i wrote the thread "Day 1" because the moment i woke up i was feeling dead broken..i almost cried but i had to man up..i mean the two weeks i was over crying to everyone close to me she was having fun, partying and going out with her boy company..what a blast for me when she told me ha?.. Anyway, my god i wanted to throw myself in hell..instead i used this forum, read a lot and did the only thing i could..invite my friends over..we talked, we laughed, hell i even got a little dizzy from drinking but it felt good..Now i know..you'll say that i did it to make her feel like i did..but know..i don\'t even want her to know that i invited them..it is official day 2 and unofficial third week..it hurts..true i would've prefered to be with her yesterday night rather than my friends but she made me realize that i have to care for them as they do for me..

 

So i spent all night talking,laughing, watching movies..my best friend helped me with packing all the things i have from her and put them in a box..i am glad i called him as if i was left to do it this box would've been empty...So i found out a different genre of music and i am so eager to learn it on my guitar that i have to time to think about her, i try to avoid it..I am just a bit scared of seeing her at school everyday though, because it will be hard...

 

My point is..we can't fight for someone who does not love us,because the way he feels hasn't changed in a matter of hours..Now i am all alone at my house, parents away for a couple of days..and i just sit and wonder how come 2 years vanish as if they were nothing... It hurts but there is nothing we who are left can do..hell...i may even write tomorrow that i feel devasted from seeing her at school..but i have to endure this for another two months as we are graduating so i will try to find some help in music and you guys in LS...

 

Sorry for the long post...just needed to get it off my chest...in the end of the day, when we look back at our realitonships it is good to know we did our best,as i truly did, it just wasn't ment to happen..life ha...Anyway..heads up people...i am trying to hold mine as well..i truly have wonderful dreams of a girl who i don't know..but she hugged me as i ment the world to her..and today i feel happy cause it was amazing..and maybe it is stupid to say..but i loved my exgirlfriend with my whole heart...but after all that happened...i can't wait to find the girl who made me feel like i feel today..

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I kind of can relate with you. Had the same done to me yesterday by him after 3 years and has left me wondering how all of a sudden could he stop loving me? Infact even liking me that way. Last I remember we were happy. And I am going to listen to the people here and go Nc but I cant find the strength to initiate it. I still love him like you love your ex-gf. I hope you can fight through it. And so do I. Thanks for the message,