the void in my life

[btvdts]

I hope that my healing is progressing ok, but I guess each person has a different time frame. maybe this has a big part in me being dumped, but I made my life around my ex and her two little girls. I would wake up the same time they did (I worked noon to close) to make them breakfast. I'd kiss and hug each of them. I'd then clean the house(laundry, dishes, yard, etc) and head off to work. when i got home, I'd eat with them, do the dishes and then help them with their h.w. the ex has severe headaches so most nights after tucking the girls in , our night would end with the ex falling asleep in my lap as I massaged her head. id then get the ex in bed and most of the time stay up watching tv or doing hw. (im a vet going back to school. I'm 28 yrs old. I've played the field and wanted to settle down. She was divorced an I was her first bf after. I'd take the girls to the park after school almost every time I was off, while the ex was still at work. I loved these girls and my ex with all of my heart. yet somewhere along the line I wasn't good enough. I'm not perfect by any means, but damn did I try. now left to start all over. it's been three months. Sometimes it feels like its been 3 years, other times it feels like its been 3 days. maybe it's the fact I'm not needed anymore or wanted that hurts me. Or maybe its the fact she threw it all away and now I'm just a stranger. Someone that would have to knock on the door if I ever went to the house again

[jphcbpa]

beautiful that you were able to love like that.

 

perhaps this is a good time to think about what makes you tick, why you picked the women you pick, what you were doing care taking so much and what that means to you.

 

I recommend doing lots of question asking and writing. reflect on you. keep this about you and you only.

 

embrace, lean into this pain...it is the great awakener

[sportzhl24]

I hope that my healing is progressing ok, but I guess each person has a different time frame. maybe this has a big part in me being dumped, but I made my life around my ex and her two little girls. I would wake up the same time they did (I worked noon to close) to make them breakfast. I'd kiss and hug each of them. I'd then clean the house(laundry, dishes, yard, etc) and head off to work. when i got home, I'd eat with them, do the dishes and then help them with their h.w. the ex has severe headaches so most nights after tucking the girls in , our night would end with the ex falling asleep in my lap as I massaged her head. id then get the ex in bed and most of the time stay up watching tv or doing hw. (im a vet going back to school. I'm 28 yrs old. I've played the field and wanted to settle down. She was divorced an I was her first bf after. I'd take the girls to the park after school almost every time I was off, while the ex was still at work. I loved these girls and my ex with all of my heart. yet somewhere along the line I wasn't good enough. I'm not perfect by any means, but damn did I try. now left to start all over. it's been three months. Sometimes it feels like its been 3 years, other times it feels like its been 3 days. maybe it's the fact I'm not needed anymore or wanted that hurts me. Or maybe its the fact she threw it all away and now I'm just a stranger. Someone that would have to knock on the door if I ever went to the house again

 

If I might ask, why did she dump you? What did she say? To me, it sounds like she probably had a pretty vague/warranted reason. No matter how bad this hurts, and I know it must hurt like nothing else, you've got to know that you did everything you could to help and love this family. It is her loss, dude. Be comforted with the fact that you did everything you possibly could.

[semicharmedlife]

For whatever reason...it just wasn't right...but it sounds like you have a lot of love to give...I hope that the next girl that comes along appreciates you for who you are...hugs to you...