This is tougher than I thought...

[Luke12345]

I broke up with my ex a few weeks back now, I've gone from a loving relationship to being so lonely. She was great at one time, caring, loving, told me she loved me enough times etc. but she did a lot of bad stuff towards the end of our relationship. I found out she was texting other guys, in times we had minor break ups before (like only 2 or 3 days long) she had snogged other guys. And our final break up she even managed to sleep with another guy within 4 days of our breakup, to come back every time and tell me she loved me though and these were all mistakes.

 

Yes, I am the dumper.

 

This is really hard because all that was playing on my mind too much, I felt like I didn't deserve that and it messed with my head too much, so I ended it as I couldn't trust her anymore, but I didn't want to for so many other reasons. We've now been NC ever since (my call) but it's been so damn rubbish without her as I'm still madly in love with her. I've done a lot to try and cope, I've been around friends every day since, I've gone out, done exercise, played games etc. but I can't get her out of my mind.

 

I've occassionally looked on her facebook, at old pictures of us, and just think at how strange it is that what we had was all of a sudden all thrown away in the blink of an eye, we don't even speak at all now. And I wonder what she's thinking. I try to tell myself why should I care, she hurt me bad, I can do better, but the memories of our better times always overlap this in my mind. I just replay over and over what happened? And then blame myself every time. I don't know what to do.

[Philosoraptor]

First, stop checking up on her. It will do nothing but further your pain and suffering.

 

Second trust that you made the right decision. Trust that the person you were, the one who lived through the relationship, not the one looking back with rose colored glasses now, made the best decision for yourself and your future.