all_cats_rgray Posted January 11, 2014 Posted January 11, 2014 Thought I'd pop on, cause I feel so different. Some how, I felt I needed to tell ppl. It's hard to explain. I still don't know why I'm making this post. I'd say it will be a year and six months. Since I'v been dumped from a 7 year relationship. I'm so glad he did it. I would not be the stronger, happy person today. IT HAD TO HAPPEN. I get sad about it, when I drink. What to say... As time goes by. You will realize you where in love and love is blind. You saw what you wanted to see, you filled in the blanks of what you wanted to hear. The truth is, what you make it. I sound so chipper. But when you realize, that you don't have to live up to "their" expectations you feel freeee. You can breath, and realize thing where bad, they where not working, and they didn't love you anymore. I'v come to dump a few men. And whenever I feel lost, I go over how I felt about them, and the fantasies they built up around you. I remember asking them, "describe me?". What type of person did they think I was? Guess what. They described someone that didn't even remotely emote to who I was. I also lied to them. "Your an amazing man, your time will come." ...I don't know why I did it. It just seemed like the right thing to say. Did they want the truth? "I think your boring, feminine, socially challenged." I'm ranting... to anyone that read's this... it gets better. even if you don't want to, you will remember the bad, you will think yourself into finding them ugly, you will stop feeling, and stop caring. your brain will scream at every freckle, big nose, annoying habit, and you will not like them. You are on your way to being on even footing of indifference. I'v never contacted, and I wonder how the f.u.c.k ppl do this without NC. best of luck ..
Haydn Posted January 11, 2014 Posted January 11, 2014 Good to hear from you again! Thought I'd pop on, cause I feel so different. Some how, I felt I needed to tell ppl. It's hard to explain. I still don't know why I'm making this post. I'd say it will be a year and six months. Since I'v been dumped from a 7 year relationship. I'm so glad he did it. I would not be the stronger, happy person today. IT HAD TO HAPPEN. I get sad about it, when I drink. What to say... As time goes by. You will realize you where in love and love is blind. You saw what you wanted to see, you filled in the blanks of what you wanted to hear. The truth is, what you make it. I sound so chipper. But when you realize, that you don't have to live up to "their" expectations you feel freeee. You can breath, and realize thing where bad, they where not working, and they didn't love you anymore. I'v come to dump a few men. And whenever I feel lost, I go over how I felt about them, and the fantasies they built up around you. I remember asking them, "describe me?". What type of person did they think I was? Guess what. They described someone that didn't even remotely emote to who I was. I also lied to them. "Your an amazing man, your time will come." ...I don't know why I did it. It just seemed like the right thing to say. Did they want the truth? "I think your boring, feminine, socially challenged." I'm ranting... to anyone that read's this... it gets better. even if you don't want to, you will remember the bad, you will think yourself into finding them ugly, you will stop feeling, and stop caring. your brain will scream at every freckle, big nose, annoying habit, and you will not like them. You are on your way to being on even footing of indifference. I'v never contacted, and I wonder how the f.u.c.k ppl do this without NC. best of luck ..
JDPT Posted January 11, 2014 Posted January 11, 2014 We all do the weirdest things when we drink. It certainly resurfaces bad memories from the past such as my ex. I try to stay off it as much as possible, but of course I always say that. 1
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