Onmymind Posted January 9, 2014 Share Posted January 9, 2014 This post is completely different than my other ones. But I just had the most lucid dream of MY life having the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind situation occur. The plot went a little bit different, but had the same abstract and tortuously beautiful and sad moments ESOTSM did. She helped me go back before our anniversary (when things went sour I guess) and we tried to figure out how to stay in that time period so we could make everything right. And I would try to hold her, cuddle and kiss her and the back of her neck and often she would soon disappear and re-appear later. The dream is quickly fading from memory now, but I can't help but wonder... Why after 2 and a half months does this CONTINUE to torture me? How can I have dreams about a woman I know is gone for good? I've made no contact, stopped checking her FB back in November...I'm sure she already met someone or has lined someone else up (Might just be paranoia from looking at this site way too much) I've really worked hard on moving on but I CAN'T. I miss our memories way too much, I still love her immensely, I just don't understand how unfair it is that we have to be left in agony thinking, unintentionally dreaming of our exes. That's my favorite movie, I've watched it for years and cried to it for YEARS. We even watched it together....I just want to be happy again. I just had to vent (again) Link to post Share on other sites
maiden555 Posted January 9, 2014 Share Posted January 9, 2014 That must have been the most intense dream! Just watching that movie will mess me up for the night. Why after 2 and a half months does this CONTINUE to torture me? How can I have dreams about a woman I know is gone for good? I've made no contact, stopped checking her FB back in November...I'm sure she already met someone or has lined someone else up (Might just be paranoia from looking at this site way too much) I've really worked hard on moving on but I CAN'T. I miss our memories way too much, I still love her immensely, I just don't understand how unfair it is that we have to be left in agony thinking, unintentionally dreaming of our exes. 2.5 months is really not much time. Some people progress linearly, some go through real ups and downs for a while. Be patient with yourself. Having said that...2.5 months is how long I've been broken up too, and I was much happier until recently. Now it's hitting like a ton of bricks. I truly feel like I'm in a prison, losing my mind. So hang in there, at least you're not alone. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Onmymind Posted January 9, 2014 Author Share Posted January 9, 2014 It was, I just don't want this anymore. I fought so hard for our love and our relationship and she didn't do ****...I shouldn't have to suffer daily missing her and continuing to love her when she's probably taking some other guy home with her, unless it's not actually like that and LS has just made me paranoid. She's never been that way, oh what the hell does it matter, she threw away everything that she loved and cared for, she didn't try to ever communicate with me when we had problems and she definitely didn't try at the end. Link to post Share on other sites
Mondmellonw Posted January 9, 2014 Share Posted January 9, 2014 I'm avoiding this movie. I'm also avoiding "The Virgin Suicides". I'm actually, avoiding every romantic movie now, since I had my BU and for the last three days I've been on a stage where I'm a "love-hater". Dreams are dreams... They will go away as soon as you feel better while awake. Link to post Share on other sites
mantlefan Posted January 9, 2014 Share Posted January 9, 2014 I'm avoiding this movie. I'm also avoiding "The Virgin Suicides". I'm actually, avoiding every romantic movie now, since I had my BU and for the last three days I've been on a stage where I'm a "love-hater". Dreams are dreams... They will go away as soon as you feel better while awake. Yeah, I am sometimes in a mood where I want to go around swinging a club at every couple holding hands and smiling at each other. Other times I just wish I could feel like that again. It's already getting better though Link to post Share on other sites
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