ViciousLaLa Posted January 9, 2014 Posted January 9, 2014 I'm unsure where I should have posted this... I was making great progress. Even well enough to date again. We've been broken up 2-3 months, but remained good friends. After awhile I began seeing him more as a friend. Wished him merry Christmas, he wished me one as well. Even planned on getting me a small gift. A couple days after we had a small convo in email but I stopped replying. He didn't wish me a happy new year, as I didn't either. Last Friday I sent a message cuz I needed his opinion on something. He didn't reply so I got mad. Deleted him off my friends list Monday morning out of annoyance. I can't stand ppl that don't put in effort in friendship. Unfortunately, yesterday I found out I may highly have breast cancer....like an idiot I sent him a message last night(day after I deleted him). Telling him bout it and I'd appreciate his support if its true. I feel so pathetic for doing this. It just looks like I'm making **** up to get his attention. I bet that's what he's thinking. Now I know for sure he's not gonna say a word again. I should have waited to be sure after the results to tell him. He hasn't replied and I know he won't. What was I thinking...it just sucks I'm acting like an idiot all of the sudden. I feel so bad.
LostConfused123 Posted January 9, 2014 Posted January 9, 2014 I'm unsure where I should have posted this... I was making great progress. Even well enough to date again. We've been broken up 2-3 months, but remained good friends. After awhile I began seeing him more as a friend. Wished him merry Christmas, he wished me one as well. Even planned on getting me a small gift. A couple days after we had a small convo in email but I stopped replying. He didn't wish me a happy new year, as I didn't either. Last Friday I sent a message cuz I needed his opinion on something. He didn't reply so I got mad. Deleted him off my friends list Monday morning out of annoyance. I can't stand ppl that don't put in effort in friendship. Unfortunately, yesterday I found out I may highly have breast cancer....like an idiot I sent him a message last night(day after I deleted him). Telling him bout it and I'd appreciate his support if its true. I feel so pathetic for doing this. It just looks like I'm making **** up to get his attention. I bet that's what he's thinking. Now I know for sure he's not gonna say a word again. I should have waited to be sure after the results to tell him. He hasn't replied and I know he won't. What was I thinking...it just sucks I'm acting like an idiot all of the sudden. I feel so bad. All that matters right now is your health! I am so sorry and I will be praying for you that you are cancer free. You were probably just scared and he is familiar to you. Don't beat yourself up!! Again, sending you prayers and big fat hugs!!!!
Author ViciousLaLa Posted January 9, 2014 Author Posted January 9, 2014 All that matters right now is your health! I am so sorry and I will be praying for you that you are cancer free. You were probably just scared and he is familiar to you. Don't beat yourself up!! Again, sending you prayers and big fat hugs!!!! Thank you (: I appreciate it! I'm honestly hoping its just maybe a minor cyst. Its just not normal because of my age.... It just seems like I was lying to him to get his attention because I had literally just deleted him the day before. Ill make it through with or without his support but it would mean so much if he'd care. Oh well. Hopefully he just hasn't checked his email.... Again, thank you for the support <3
polynomial Posted January 10, 2014 Posted January 10, 2014 DON'T feel pathetic! I'm having some health issues myself and am battling to break NC and tell my ex.. But you guys weren't even in NC, you remained friends. It's completely natural you wanted to share your worry with someone who's close to you and could offer support. Again, don't feel pathetic cause it's really not. Also, I hope for the best for you!
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