Bynotfound Posted January 5, 2014 Posted January 5, 2014 Hi, I have a few questions I would like to ask about my relationship and I hope you guys would help me my ex boyfriend and i have been together for 1 year 8 months. Im 17 and he's 18. We broke up last march and its been around 10 months since we've broke up. He broke up with me because he lost feelings for me. He said there wasn't a reason why, but I think it was because I was too jealous about everything he does. Like I would get jealous when he gets close to other girls. I admit I'm very insecure. I cried and begged him when we broke up but he just told me he can't lie about his feelings anymore. All of his friends were shocked when they knew that we broke up because of that reason. This is his longest relationship. Most of his friends told me that I was the first girl he ever loved among all, and that he kind of regretted when we broke up. One month later, I tried talking to him again hoping that I would have another chance. But he just told me that he is over me and have moved on. He consoled me, and said that I will move on soon. 10 months later, today, I'm still in love with him, probably more in love than I was. I don't even know why I love him that much. I didn't know it was possible to love someone that much. I don't go all depressed and starve myself or cry. I still carry on my life, hoping that one day there would be a miracle. Ever since the last talk we had, we never contacted each other. He would look at me in school but we never talked. He unfollowed/ deleted me on all social networks. But last year during November, before school ended, he started smiling at me and talking to me again but it was always like a hi-bye Convo, and he graduated from school last December. But during the end of nov he started calling me asking me out for a meal. We hanged out with a group of friends one day. He claims that I'm his best friend. He knows I'm still in love with him. Everyone says its obvious. He would sit so closely to me, and even ask me to lie on his shoulder cause I was sick. I know it's just probably him being friendly but he shouldn't do that knowing that I still have feelings for him right? It's just making me confused and giving me hope. We slept over a friend's house after nye, and I slept with him under the same blanket. He would hug me, and lie really close to me. He even wrapped our legs together (we used to that when we were together). And he always pulls me in and hug me when we go out. Recently he told me about one of his gay friend who's interested in him. He told his friend that he's straight but I'm afraid he might fall for his gay friend one dayas he always says the guy's so cute,sweet etc. Im confused.... I wish I could ask him if he still has feelings for me... But i am kind of very sure that he doesn't anymore... But his actions ? Someone please help? Your comments are very much appreciated. Thank you all!!
d0nnivain Posted January 5, 2014 Posted January 5, 2014 You had a long lasting high school relationship. They can be very powerful but it's the rare exception that your high school romance is actually the love of your life. He may want to be your friend again but since you want more, friendship is a bad idea from your perspective because it will only leave you unfulfilled. You can't control whether he explores his sexuality with his gay friend but that has nothing to do with you. You should try to figure out what made you so jealous & learn how to control that part of yourself.
Got it Posted January 5, 2014 Posted January 5, 2014 What are you focusing on your life? What are you doing to develop yourself? If you aren't sure why you still love him, and 10 months is a long time to continue is it the "idea" of loving him that you are in love with? Or the dream of loving him? What what could have been?
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