rosedl Posted January 4, 2014 Posted January 4, 2014 The relationship is over. He does not want to be in it, and even though I don't believe the story is hoisting on me, what does it matter? It is done. On top of it, I just had my driver's license suspended for sixty days because I was driving with a suspended license (which I had no idea I was doing, I was late paying a ticket and it got pulled, got pulled over again for something minor and it snowballed into this)! Note to anyone who lives in MA, do NOT plead guilty to this charge, I did and thought I got off with a 100 fine. No one at the court told me I would face suspension again if I fought it!!! The timing of losing my ability to go places in the dead of winter and having my heart broken at the same time is just a real blow. I do have friends (thank god, not him, thats for sure) who are all stepping up to the plate and offering daily rides and companionship during this tough time. It just sucks. I am scared. And, I feel ashamed of losing my license, even though I know I didn't commit some big terrible crime. I am also discouraged because I have been through a lot in relationships and they haven't worked out. I really thought I found my life partner in this man, and it is not just losing him, but losing the life I thought we were moving into that has been tough. And, being so wrong about all of it. My hope is really at a low point. I am trying not to lose perspective. I know break ups hurt. I know it will not be this way forever. I know not being able to drive for a couple of months is small potatoes to much larger problems people face. I am just having a hard time remembering that in the middle of all of this.... Logically, I know that being with someone who breaks up with you every few months because they panic around commitment and then blame you for why they do is not a recipe for happiness. I know it is blessing in disguise type stuff. Hell, even losing the license could be that given how much I have been going out to avoid dealing with stressful home, I might finally take care of some it. It just sucks. Sorry if this is round about. It is a rant. I just need to remind myself that This Too Shall Pass Thanks for reading.
iworthmore Posted January 4, 2014 Posted January 4, 2014 first.. sorry to hear it's over. this too shall pass u got that right. its not a shame loosing ur licence!! **** happens. sometimes in a row. ull have another man that will commit to the RS. its not ur fault that some men cant commit because of whatever reason. real man can commit if he really loves and not afraid of long term RS and marriage. he cant commit so let him go. im in london. winter sux. i lost my car in an accident and my cellphone broke within 48 hrs from the BU, 3 months ago. i had to manage without a car and learn to stay at home sometimes and do things that cheer me up. don't create an imaginary cage, try to use everything for your advantage. stick to strict NC. remember it will get better. i'v been there and now im here which is much better good luck
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