thanks for listening to me

January 4, 2014

hi

i've been feeling very heartbroken lately and been reading online and i came across this website. it was comforting reading everyone's story and i felt that i was not alone, and there were so many of us healing together, getting stronger together.

i just felt like writing my story here because there isn't anyone in my life who can understand or listen to my pain, because they're all so busy and happy, haha. but i'm happy for them for that.

i recently broke up with my boyfriend of 1.5 years. like many people, we used to be so happy and so perfect to me and we even planned to get married. we travelled overseas together many times, and we have been staying together for the past half a year. he was never a very adventurous man, but he accompanied me on my little journeys through life, which i am still very grateful for.

the thing is, he often talked about his dream about having a family of his own, and i shared that dream. but what i did not know was that, he just wanted a family of his own and no one else. so after a few months, he started forbidding me from talking to any of my friends, not even my closest female friends. i was shocked at first, and i thought something bad had happened at his home so i tried asking, tried to be patient. then when this did not happened, i became desperate to make him stay and i indeed cut off connections between me and my friends. but that did not satisfy him. he continued suspecting him. on the occasions where i did go out with my friends without telling him, i feel deeply apologetic for lying to him and i want to forgive myself now.

this was not the only problem in our relationship. he refuses to bring me to meet his parents, and when once he was missing for a day i tried contacting his sister and asking if he was okay he threatened to call the police to arrest me for harraassing his family. he also lied to me about his home address, which i found out by looking at his IC. he has already met all my family, and has stayed with me for sometime.

in the past week, i have not seen him. he constantly insults me via text message and i tell him to just come and talk to me in person if not it is over. and he hasn't done any, but me being weak, continues to reply him. i guess a small part of me is scared that without him, i would not survive. i am in great pain.

but today's the day. i have decided to move on from the past.

do you think anyone could love me again? i'm not pretty, and i don't have a lot of self-confidence.

sorry for the long post!! it's nice knowing someone could be listening to my story. thanks you guys

January 4, 2014

Don't engage with him any longer, he sounds like an ******* and you're better off without him.

good luck

January 4, 2014

" i'm not pretty, and i don't have a lot of self-confidence."

Come on! Are you serious?

You sound like a great girl.

And you took an incredible opportunity to get off, he wanted to isolate you.

God only knows what kind of man he really is, but you should be glad you're now far away from him. Cheer up

January 4, 2014

This guy is insane and a control freak. You are well rid of him. You need someone who is honest and you can trust. read my threads. I was controlled for years. Its not healthy and can only end in failure. He is a liar. You are better than this.