flightplan Posted January 6, 2014 Posted January 6, 2014 Admittedly, I hope that by knowing I don't hate her, it might encourage her to contact me at some point, but I also know the likelihood of that is slim. It feels nice for me to have told her I don't hate her, and its true. I love her to much to hate her, and despite all this, I know that in her heart she is a good person. Maybe she is just unsure about these feelings. Even though she was the one who said I love you first, and asked me to move down there to her, and even brought up marriage at some point, I don't know. Maybe she realized just how deep she was falling and it scared her. I just hope she can push past the fear, and when she sees the losers down where she lives, (She has described them to me as losers many many times.), she may be willing to come back. I am afterall, a catch. I am a gentleman, I am kind, and hard working. I don't abuse and do any of that crap. I hope she realizes that. She's 19. There aren't a whole lot of 19 year old girls (she's not a woman, she's a girl) that have enough life experience to know what they want nor possess enough self esteem to know what they're giving up. Either way, if you keep holding on to the idea that she may see the light or error of her ways, you'll never recover. She has to be dead to you. Invisible. Gone. Get yourself better, be the man you want to be. Get your self esteem and confidence back. Leave her the hell alone and move forward. Your BU is no longer about her.. it's about you. I'm going through the same bull****... but I'm gonna kick it's ass sooner rather than later because I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I went on my first date since the BU the other night and it felt righteous. There was no spark, but I'm lining up more dates. Hang in there.
legion113 Posted January 6, 2014 Posted January 6, 2014 "I know you asked me not to contact you, but it bothers me to think that you think I hate you. I DO NOT hate you, never have and never will. I needed to say that. I will do as you ask and not contact you, maybe someday we can talk again, but you have to contact me, that way I don't go against your request and come across as a weirdo. Have a safe flight back to Cali and good luck with school." "I am afterall, a catch. I am a gentleman, I am kind, and hard working. I don't abuse and do any of that crap. I hope she realizes that. " Actually you just became a doormat. 1
Haydn Posted January 6, 2014 Posted January 6, 2014 Quite a catch? Did you seriously say that? You need to temper that lost ego my friend. Go NC and dont look back and dont have anymore high and mighty ideals about yourself. You have being dumped, you were not the catch you thought. Admittedly, I hope that by knowing I don't hate her, it might encourage her to contact me at some point, but I also know the likelihood of that is slim. It feels nice for me to have told her I don't hate her, and its true. I love her to much to hate her, and despite all this, I know that in her heart she is a good person. Maybe she is just unsure about these feelings. Even though she was the one who said I love you first, and asked me to move down there to her, and even brought up marriage at some point, I don't know. Maybe she realized just how deep she was falling and it scared her. I just hope she can push past the fear, and when she sees the losers down where she lives, (She has described them to me as losers many many times.), she may be willing to come back. I am afterall, a catch. I am a gentleman, I am kind, and hard working. I don't abuse and do any of that crap. I hope she realizes that. 1
Author collegeguy_24 Posted January 6, 2014 Author Posted January 6, 2014 I never actually told her I am a catch, I just posted it here as a boost for my self esteem, which is pretty low at the moment. Also, her and I had a long conversation today over text, it was hard, but I actually have some closer now. I feel a bit better about it then I was before. If people want I can post the texts here, you guys decide. But I now have a better understanding of what is going on, she was very willing to come forth with the details and it is very clear she is hurting bad, her texts make that clear.
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