FearingTEN Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 (edited) I've had enough . I'm depressed . I miss her crazy . All I do is wake up , and check my phone every 5 minutes . I have nothing in life to look forward to . i don't feel like living anymore . you have all heard my story . I have posted here many times . maybe I should end my life . That way I will never break NC . I'm done . Everything is so hard . i love her so much but everything is falling apart for me Edited January 2, 2014 by FearingTEN
pickflicker Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 I've had enough . I'm depressed . I miss her crazy . All I do is wake up , and check my phone every 5 minutes . I have nothing in life to look forward to . i don't feel like living anymore . you have all heard my story . I have posted here many times . maybe I should end my life . That way I will never break NC . I'm done . Everything is so hard This is not as bad as you're making it. You're just snowballing this into something much worse than it is. Why don't you try breaking NC into smaller lots? Try to go a few hours. Then after that, try to go a few more hours. Build up to a day, a week, etc. You're seriously going to end your life over a girl? That's a waste. Maybe start by replacing the texting her with something else. Get a new phone with a new number. Call your phone company and ask them to blocke hers, I'm sure they could do it. 4
JDPT Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Ending it is absolutely not worth it at all. You have everything you need to get through these rough moments. Always think that things could be worse, yes you lost someone who meant a lot to you but keep in mind that nothing remains stagnant. You need to continue to fight for yourself and make progress little by little. Take baby steps, anxiety often gets the best of us. I can only suggest at this point to seek professional assistance, it always helps in times of distress. 3
David87 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 I've had enough . I'm depressed . I miss her crazy . All I do is wake up , and check my phone every 5 minutes . I have nothing in life to look forward to . i don't feel like living anymore . you have all heard my story . I have posted here many times . maybe I should end my life . That way I will never break NC . I'm done . Everything is so hard . i love her so much but everything is falling apart for me Dude w*f, calm down, don't even think about that, she doesn't worth it. 1
Haydn Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 End your life? Sorry but stupid. You would hurt people who care about you and what do you think she would think? That you were crazy maybe? Shes still living and you are dead? Who has the better deal? Block her number and delete it and all social media. Start trying to get her away from your life. Until you make a serious effort you will dig yourself further down. And if you want to kill yourself, do it quietly. Sorry if that sounds harsh but people who do this usually never let on. If i am wrong tell me and you are just being flippant. Keep posting and keep going, I've had enough . I'm depressed . I miss her crazy . All I do is wake up , and check my phone every 5 minutes . I have nothing in life to look forward to . i don't feel like living anymore . you have all heard my story . I have posted here many times . maybe I should end my life . That way I will never break NC . I'm done . Everything is so hard 4
Haydn Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Sorry i was hard but the thought of anyone killing themselves over someone else, well..........You only have one go on this this planet friend. We all feel the bleakness sometimes but seriously to take your life? I was so down after my ex dumped me and i thought i was finished but not in the sense i needed to top myself for validation. If was going to do that i would be as quiet as a mouse. Keep trying. 5
Kalinka1 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Come on - to me it seems like you have too much time on your hands if you are obsessing like this. Nobody is worth dying over. Remember that we are all wonderful people! No reason to be afraid of anything. Focus on yourself, send that loser-ex-GF to hell and get on with life, you still have the amazing meeting of 'the one' ahead of you! Courage, my friend. 2
ponchsox Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Things happen in life. We lose pets, friends, loved ones. You have to remember the good times and move forward with your life. It's way too short to dwell on past things. 3
Kevin_D Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 I've had enough . I'm depressed . I miss her crazy . All I do is wake up , and check my phone every 5 minutes . I have nothing in life to look forward to . i don't feel like living anymore . you have all heard my story . I have posted here many times . maybe I should end my life . That way I will never break NC . I'm done . Everything is so hard . i love her so much but everything is falling apart for me I'll share a little method I use when I feel like you: Have you ever seen the movie "La Vita Bella"? It's about a father and his son in a concentration camp. The father tells his son they're actually participating in a contest and that they can leave anytime they want. This makes the kid endure a lot of pain. Whenever I feel like I don't want to live anymore, I try to look at life this way. I get one chance to participate in this competition and I am free to give up anytime I want. And that's exactly why I won't give up. 3
pickflicker Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 When you've made absolutely no effort to go NC, it naturally feels hopless. You need to try going a full 24 hours without breaking NC. After that, before you break it, post here. 2
LostConfused123 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 You will hurt so many people if you do that!!! The people that love and care about you would be absolutely devastated. Please, call a hotline if you are serious!!! NOW!!!! We are all here for you!!! She's NOT WORTH IT!!! 1
legion113 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 (edited) I've had enough . I'm depressed . I miss her crazy . All I do is wake up , and check my phone every 5 minutes . I have nothing in life to look forward to . i don't feel like living anymore . you have all heard my story . I have posted here many times . maybe I should end my life . That way I will never break NC . I'm done . Everything is so hard . i love her so much but everything is falling apart for me Do you know what will happen when you kill yourself? Your soul will live on, and it will still be in pain. You will however see all the people who's life you affected by killing yourself. You will see your family suffering. You will feel even worse than now. You will also witness what your life would have been like if you had lived. You will see the future girlfriend you gave up, your future wife, your future kids. You will see that you got over it after awhile, and you will see that you became happy again. You will see all the holidays you could have spent with your family. What's worse, you will have to go thru another life where this happens again until you choose not to kill yourself. Your future girlfriend/wife is waiting for you, you've already made a contract with her before you came down here, you will destroy her contract and her ability to grow, learn from you, love you, and love being with you. She is counting on you, your future kids are counting on you. How do I know this? Because I have read numerous books about people who committed suicide and their souls continued to live on. You won't be escaping anything, except this time you will feel 100x worse because you forfeited the gift of life so easily. You think the pain is bad now? It will be worse on the other side, and will last much longer. Edited January 2, 2014 by legion113
pickflicker Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Because I have read numerous books about people who committed suicide and their souls continued to live on. . Did their souls write the book? I'm not being facetious, I'm actually asking. 4
JDPT Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Do you know what will happen when you kill yourself? Your soul will live on, and it will still be in pain. You will however see all the people who's life you affected by killing yourself. You will see your family suffering. You will feel even worse than now. You will also witness what your life would have been like if you had lived. You will see the future girlfriend you gave up, your future wife, your future kids. You will see that you got over it after awhile, and you will see that you became happy again. You will see all the holidays you could have spent with your family. What's worse, you will have to go thru another life where this happens again until you choose not to kill yourself. Your future girlfriend/wife is waiting for you, you've already made a contract with her before you came down here, you will destroy her contract and he ability to grow. She is counting on you, your future kids are counting on you. How do I know this? Because I have read numerous books about people who committed suicide and their souls continued to live on. You won't be escaping anything, except this time you will feel 100x worse because you forfeited the gift of life so easily. You think the pain is bad now? It will be worse on the other side, and will last much longer. This is pretty deep stuff. You certainly don't want to witness what "could have been" and what you perhaps missed out on. Ride this wave out friend and be strong. This is a rough patch that's all it is be strong, scream if you have to but you will make it through this bad moment.
LostConfused123 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 I'll share a little method I use when I feel like you: Have you ever seen the movie "La Vita Bella"? It's about a father and his son in a concentration camp. The father tells his son they're actually participating in a contest and that they can leave anytime they want. This makes the kid endure a lot of pain. Whenever I feel like I don't want to live anymore, I try to look at life this way. I get one chance to participate in this competition and I am free to give up anytime I want. And that's exactly why I won't give up. Yes! Love that movie. Everyone should get the chance to watch it!! It really puts things into perspective!! Go watch it now!! seriously!!
Kevin_D Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Do you know what will happen when you kill yourself? Your soul will live on, and it will still be in pain. You will however see all the people who's life you affected by killing yourself. You will see your family suffering. You will feel even worse than now. You will also witness what your life would have been like if you had lived. You will see the future girlfriend you gave up, your future wife, your future kids. You will see that you got over it after awhile, and you will see that you became happy again. You will see all the holidays you could have spent with your family. What's worse, you will have to go thru another life where this happens again until you choose not to kill yourself. Your future girlfriend/wife is waiting for you, you've already made a contract with her before you came down here, you will destroy her contract and he ability to grow. She is counting on you, your future kids are counting on you. How do I know this? Because I have read numerous books about people who committed suicide and their souls continued to live on. You won't be escaping anything, except this time you will feel 100x worse because you forfeited the gift of life so easily. You think the pain is bad now? It will be worse on the other side, and will last much longer. This is pretty much the summary of "It's a Wonderful Life". Great movie by the way. You've probably watched it several times, but it can really help: It's a Wonderful Life - YouTube 1
Haydn Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Not to go off topic too much here. But good point Pickflicker. I am sure belief is for another thread. Personally i dont believe but thats me. But legion a topical cream worked wonders for my worrying rash. OP, could you please let us know what you thinking and how we could help? But if you are so so down you can call the samaritans or another group depending where you are. Because despite some flippancy i know that the members here what to know you are ok. Did their souls write the book? I'm not being facetious, I'm actually asking. 1
LostConfused123 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Not to go off topic too much here. But good point Pickflicker. I am sure belief is for another thread. Personally i dont believe but thats me. But legion a topical cream worked wonders for my worrying rash. OP, could you please let us know what you thinking and how we could help? But if you are so so down you can call the samaritans or another group depending where you are. Because despite some flippancy i know that the members here what to know you are ok. Yes, we do!!
headinthecloud Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Hey, Fearing. You're not alone. I don't know you but I care about you because I know what you're going through right now and I can tell you that it will pass. First, call a distress centre - they are there to help and its totally anonymous. My friend works for one and she is awesome...who knows, maybe you'll get her (tell her I say hi) Google "crisis line" or "distress centre" to find a free line. Whatever you do....DON'T LAY DOWN.....FIGHT!!! It will pass...it's just a moment in time. The world is beautiful. You're world is just a little cloudy right now and you're having trouble seeing the forrest through the trees. You will get through this...you just need more time. Keep me posted on how you're doing. 4
Haydn Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Watertight advice. Hey, Fearing. You're not alone. I don't know you but I care about you because I know what you're going through right now and I can tell you that it will pass. First, call a distress centre - they are there to help and its totally anonymous. My friend works for one and she is awesome...who knows, maybe you'll get her (tell her I say hi) Google "crisis line" or "distress centre" to find a free line. Whatever you do....DON'T LAY DOWN.....FIGHT!!! It will pass...it's just a moment in time. The world is beautiful. You're world is just a little cloudy right now and you're having trouble seeing the forrest through the trees. You will get through this...you just need more time. Keep me posted on how you're doing.
legion113 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Did their souls write the book? I'm not being facetious, I'm actually asking. In alot of books about life between lives or what happens when you die, Suicide is talked about a lot. The souls come back to the mediums to tell their story, and no they don't go to hell. The general consensus is, "That was the worst thing I could have done, dammit it..and over a girl?!?!?!?" Just think, look at how most of us think of our exes from years ago, not uch right. Now imagine you killed yourself and then you stopped caring about her. There you have it.
deathandtaxes Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 OP - why do you let her have that much POWER over you? 1
legion113 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Not to go off topic too much here. But good point Pickflicker. I am sure belief is for another thread. Personally i dont believe but thats me. But legion a topical cream worked wonders for my worrying rash. OP, could you please let us know what you thinking and how we could help? But if you are so so down you can call the samaritans or another group depending where you are. Because despite some flippancy i know that the members here what to know you are ok. Very cool Haydn:D
Mondmellonw Posted January 3, 2014 Posted January 3, 2014 Yes! Love that movie. Everyone should get the chance to watch it!! It really puts things into perspective!! Go watch it now!! seriously!! You could also watch "Grave of the Fireflies".
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