Volthi10 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 This is just so hard. I can't eat and all I do is sleep. I know I've lost weight because my clothes don't fit me anymore. Sleep has been disturbed by family members coming to check on me. I tell them I'm okay and when they leave I get really bad anxiety and just cry. I feel so alone in this and I know I'm not. But this feeling of sadness just drowns me. . I ask myself the same thing every day. Just liek you I have my good days and some where I crawl in bed and cry for hours thinking about how it all went wrong. Then I have to get myself back up and pray and know that it will take time to heal, but I will be ok. I made it through a worse situation when I was younger and that helps me pull through. You will be ok! Give it time and when you feel at your lowest, pray, pray that you have the strength and acceptance to move on. My sister sent me a picture this morning I was trying to upload here but didn't let me, but read this: "Take all the time you need to heal emotionally, moving on doesn't take a day. It takes a lot of little steps to be able to break free of your broken self." Unfortunately I wonder why I can't just erase him from my memory and move on, but life doesn't work that way. :*( Hope you feel better! <3 Sending you lots of love and my prayers.
polynomial Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Five minutes after I posted the original thread, I got a call from him. I had changed my number, but texted him shortly after the change to wish him happy holidays. He had ignored me for 2 weeks and now he calls. Why did he call? To wish happy new year? Also.. chaning your number and then texting him.. not a good move 2
nerdlingZA Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 OP , You are at the very 1st stage of your break-up , don't think I can give much of an advice rather than NC , carry on crying and lying on the floor as long as you don't make contact with ur Ex you will benefit a lot : 1. YOU WON'T LOSS DIGNITY 2. YOUR EX WON'T SEE YOU AS PATHETIC 3. YOU WILL bECOME BETTER AS TIME PROGRESSES & YOU WILL FiNALLY MOVE ON & BE YOURSELF AGAIN WITH NEW IMPROVEMENTS!!!
Still Searching Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Also.. chaning your number and then texting him.. not a good move Yep, confusing. Doesn't this completely defeat the purpose?
barky2 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 It defeated the purpose because you're not ready to put on your big girl britches and move on....or at least attempt it in the slightest. Listening to depressive music won't help, I know it all too well. Your appetite is hindered because of depression and the meds. If you don't eat, you'll get sick and skinny than the guy you're suppose to be with won't look at you. Harsh but In trying to strike a cord with you. The breakup is fresh, the wound is open. You HAVE to go through the steps of a breakup. It's natural for you to feel the way you've been feeling, but to a point. You cannot sit there and hope,dream,self pity ect That's not healthy one bit. You need to ( and I've said this a million time) go to a mirror , look at yourself realize what you're going through and BATTLE AND FIGHT through the pain and misery that comes with it. You'll be a different person than before, a changed, BETTER person. Go through the steps of this, honestly you don't have a choice. You can either go through it, or crumble. Sorry but crumble doesn't exist, so it leaves you with one option. Barky 2
organizedchaos Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 This is just so hard. I can't eat and all I do is sleep. I know I've lost weight because my clothes don't fit me anymore. Sleep has been disturbed by family members coming to check on me. I tell them I'm okay and when they leave I get really bad anxiety and just cry. I feel so alone in this and I know I'm not. But this feeling of sadness just drowns me. I've been taking Lexapro for about 5 days now so I know that might be part of the reason for my extra sadness, loss of appetite and anxiety. Usually it gets worse before it gets better with depression medications. I'm just trying to ride it through. But today, I've slept all day and I'm so tired and weak. I woke up thinking of him and ran to the bathroom and threw up. I just laid there on the bathroom floor, my heart racing fast and wondering when I'm going to get past this. How do I let him go? When will I be happy again? I found this song by Katy Perry, called By The Grace of God. It's so beautiful and speaks to me: By the grace of God (there was no other way) I picked myself back up (I knew I had to stay) I put one foot in front of the other and I Looked in the mirror and decided to stay Wasn't gonna let love take me out I just need help finding my strength again. I came on here hoping someone can make me feel a little bit better, help my world find that light again. This has been tough. 2013 is gone and I have this new year ahead of me. The past is behind me and this possible future is all mine, but I don't know what to do with it. I'm scared I won't ever get over him. Just keep replaying the last conversations you had with him back in your mind and you'll realize he's just a controlling dbag.
anna121 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Five minutes after I posted the original thread, I got a call from him. I had changed my number, but texted him shortly after the change to wish him happy holidays. He had ignored me for 2 weeks and now he calls. FACEPALM. Good Gawd….. 8
Kilty Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Five minutes after I posted the original thread, I got a call from him. I had changed my number, but texted him shortly after the change to wish him happy holidays. He had ignored me for 2 weeks and now he calls. I could have put money on it as i predicted in my reply to you You are only letting the cycle begin again Good for him contacting you when the holidays are nearly over after dumping you before they began and had you in a state during them. He has you exactly where he wants you 2
cavalier99 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Five minutes after I posted the original thread, I got a call from him. I had changed my number, but texted him shortly after the change to wish him happy holidays. He had ignored me for 2 weeks and now he calls. ohhh good god. 1
pickflicker Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Five minutes after I posted the original thread, I got a call from him. I had changed my number, but texted him shortly after the change to wish him happy holidays. He had ignored me for 2 weeks and now he calls. Um, why did you do this?
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted January 2, 2014 Author Posted January 2, 2014 Um, why did you do this? I ignored. 1
Simon Phoenix Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Five minutes after I posted the original thread, I got a call from him. I had changed my number, but texted him shortly after the change to wish him happy holidays. He had ignored me for 2 weeks and now he calls. http://gifs.gifbin.com/062010/1275389857_naked-gun-facepalm.gif Well that defeated the purpose of changing your number. 1
stillafool Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 http://gifs.gifbin.com/062010/1275389857_naked-gun-facepalm.gif Well that defeated the purpose of changing your number. I think she wanted him to have her number. No one makes a mistake like that. 4
Simon Phoenix Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 I'm even more convinced that you are the artist formerly known as youngnlove89 now.
Simon Phoenix Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 I think she wanted him to have her number. No one makes a mistake like that. Yep, no one with a functioning brain. It was definitely a calculated move on her part. Dumb and calculating all in one. Should have stuck with the old number if that's what she wanted to do. 5
tink_10050 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 The calling, texting thing can be confusing. Mine kept calling and texting me all the time. That was too hard, so I told him I needed some space to heal and would call when I was ready. After a while that seemed worse than having him calling me. I have to say that it's true that you need time to be able to talk to him without getting emotionally upset. Then, when your ready you can talk to him. That........ is another confusing mess.
Zahara Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 I'm even more convinced that you are the artist formerly known as youngnlove89 now. I second that.
pickflicker Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Yep, no one with a functioning brain. It was definitely a calculated move on her part. Dumb and calculating all in one. Should have stuck with the old number if that's what she wanted to do. I second that.
JDPT Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Five minutes after I posted the original thread, I got a call from him. I had changed my number, but texted him shortly after the change to wish him happy holidays. He had ignored me for 2 weeks and now he calls. Change it again until you learn your lesson. 2
legion113 Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Ah, BYCS, lexapro takes a while to take effect, sounds like you need some antianxiety meds like ativan or xanax, I prefer ativan. Go see a doctor about it. Well, so yeah, you screwed up. Start over. Look, i think you're pretty good looking, I also think you are really sweet based on your posts, so I know guys will be interested in you. Look, just think, you have a good looking (ha ha self proclaimed) doctor that likes you. Tell your ex that if he ever calls or texts you, that usually makes ex boyfriends crap their pants. If I still had my other pic up(most guys think Doctor=goober fat/skinny dweeb) you could have used that too. Unfortunately people here are right, you're back at square one. So strt over, now you know what it does when you break NC. Learn from it. Good luck 1
Haydn Posted January 2, 2014 Posted January 2, 2014 Oh Legion, your such a heel. Ah, BYCS, lexapro takes a while to take effect, sounds like you need some antianxiety meds like ativan or xanax, I prefer ativan. Go see a doctor about it. Well, so yeah, you screwed up. Start over. Look, i think you're pretty good looking, I also think you are really sweet based on your posts, so I know guys will be interested in you. Look, just think, you have a good looking (ha ha self proclaimed) doctor that likes you. Tell your ex that if he ever calls or texts you, that usually makes ex boyfriends crap their pants. If I still had my other pic up(most guys think Doctor=goober fat/skinny dweeb) you could have used that too. Unfortunately people here are right, you're back at square one. So strt over, now you know what it does when you break NC. Learn from it. Good luck
barky2 Posted January 3, 2014 Posted January 3, 2014 I'm even more convinced that you are the artist formerly known as youngnlove89 now. Lol I didn't even think about that. Barky 1
legion113 Posted January 3, 2014 Posted January 3, 2014 Oh Legion, your such a heel. LOL!! Guilty as charged.
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