denial

[Mr me to]

After 4 months post break up why do I still feel I'm in a relationship with my ex? Im low contact due to children but every time I see her or hear her voice I feel like nothing has changed. I still feel what she is doing is my concern, I don't want to know but I still can't stop obsessing about what she up to. Any small piece of information I obsess about and come up with my own conclusion. I wake up on a morning and it still takes hours before I convince =myself there is nothing I can do, she just doesn't love me no more. I even registered on plenty of fish, I got chatting to a few girls who wanted to meet up but I couldn't go through with it, ended up deleting account. Christmas was hard but today feels even harder. New year is a time for lovers and I know she is going to be spending it with someone else. Last year we went away had a great time. She was upset that I never proposed to her. maybe if I did things would be different now… Ive wrote down all the negatives and all the hurtful things she did to me in our relationship but still I can't move on. She going to be here dropping children off in a couple of hours and then that will be it, she'll be off with her new boyfriend and Ill be home with our children

[mammasita]

Look on the bright side - YOU WILL NOT BE ALONE! you'll be with your children.

 

Do something fun with them. New years isn't about lovers. It's about new beginnings.